if only...

"He loved her like there was no tomorrow..."

thats the tagline of the touching tragic love story "If Only"..watchd it this aftee on star movies..it was just soo beautiful..its sometimes credited as a romantic final desination!!..but waaay better..anyway..its about this guy ian (paul nicholls..he is really really good..tho relatively unknown), a very "british" businessman, and his impetuous musician girfriend, sam (jennifer love hewitt)..after she dies in an accident shortly after they had a fight and nearly broke up, ian get a second chance..a chance to relive the day all over again..in the hope of changing the events that led up to her getting killed..and maybe somewhere along the way..prevent it from happening..as the day goes on..he finds that everything is happening just like "yesterday"..but not necessarily in the same order..so he knows that the accident would happen..but maybe the whole day need not be ruined like "yesterday"..so he proceeds to make "today" the most beautifully perfect day of her life..and well the rest you have to see..especially paul nicholls as ian..brilliant performance..

it is very hard to get into more detail without giving away too much of the film..but let's just say..we are treated to a touching dramatic story of a romance..we see what a unique opportunity life could bring and how we should never take for granted what we say or do in relationships because of what can happen in life..the message is simple: if you love someone dont waste time on showing how much you love him or her..on how much you value him or her..and how much you appreciated him or her for being there with you..coz truly..kal ho na ho!!..

its an amazing movie..such a simple sweet story..and the climax.........also some awsum shots of breathtaking english countryside..all in all..an excellent treat..one to be watched on rainy days with a new pack of tissues..truly touching..

hmm..er..ahhh..mmm..

another typical vacation day..woke up early..and went off to sleep again..some tv and breakfast and on to the comp..m completely addicted to it..i mean seriously..i actually feel like something is missing..physically..when i havnt been online for sometime!!..

well..found a new saying/one liner/watever today while browsing thru net..
"It's funny how someone can break your heart..and you still love them with all the little pieces.."

its quite true isnt it??..someone you love can go on hurting you..on and on..break your heart..leave you..but seems like as every day passes by..you cant forget him..forget those times..those precious moments..spent together..you cant help but loving him..you know he doesnt care..didnt even deserve you..you were an idiot for ever having fallen for him..but those little pieces of your broken heart still miraculously hold the power to care for him..the very hand that crushed all your dreams..you cant seem to hate him..why is that??..you know you should forget him..but everytime you see him..your heart stops..there are those familiar butterflies in your stomach..everything seems to be the same..only it isnt..and you know it..or should..but cant..am i making any sense at all here??..

sometimes when i think of all this..feels somehow unreal..as if its happened to me..and also hasnt..like a dream..which feels all too real..dunno how to explain it..iv never had my heart broken yet (touchwood)..then y do i think so??..not only think but actually feel so..i must hav one heck of an imagination..lol..

anyway..bak 2 my day..net net n sum more net..mailed a few frnds..joined in d kv grp discussion..hmm..hmm..uploaded a few pics frm my digicam..net again..went home for lunch..watched smallville..off 2 a frnds house..den bak 2 net..tried wrking..but jst 2 bored..cant wait 2 get bak 2 d univ..missing d place n d ppl n my comp like crazy..anyway..watchd gangster..rather finished watching gangster..really gud..shiny ahuja has an awsum presence..rarely dus sum actor not need words 2 act..his eyes do it..dat burning luk!!..

anyway..rt now chattin n tryin 2 make sum sense out of dis blog..feeling kinda weird..too weird actually..kinda senti..n i really cant figure out why..feel like im surrounded by ghosts..well not exactly..cant quite pen it down..

umm..gettin quite late now..n dad will b gettin here soon..soo..
ciao fr 2nite..

squall leonhart..

like this poem..found it in one of my mindless wanderings of cyberspace..n it suits squall just soo well..this poem n the theme song "eyes on me"..i actually bcame a fan of anime music after listening to it..dint know then that it was frm ffviii..den dis frnd lent me a dvd of a whole bunch of ff songs n vidz..

hav been fida ovr squall fr a looong time..one of my bros used 2 jst go on n on n on abt rinoa heartilly, squall's love interest in d game..i jst read a bit abt it 2 humour him..n fell hopelessly in luv..hehe..2 mushy fr me i know..but den der is sumthing abt these xters which draws me 2wards them..den i saw my bro play d game..n tried my hand at it 2..d junctioning have me such a headache i remm..tuk me quite a long time even 2 finish d small demo..but once u get d hang of it everything falls into place..but its jst 2 long..i wud hav really liked 2 finish it at 1 go but dats impossible..evn by my standards..wud soo like to watch it as a full-length movie..like advent children..

dunno y im always attracted to these supposedly heartless xters..first der was cloud strife frm ffvii..but i liked sephiroth (d villain) better..luv dat scene ver hes leavin n d whole place is in flames..him n his long sword..tho yes cloud's huuge sword is anothr fav among weapons..but den so is d gunblade of squall..

anyway..bak to d poem..i quite identify 2 it myself..tho i havnt really been heartbroken..as far as i remm its d othr way round..but sumhow i feel sad about it all (when i dont even hav anything to b sad about strangely..)..sometimes..i dont think iv evr let anyone in..i make a pretty good listener n loads of my frnds have bared their hearts n souls 2 me..n i gave dem sum pretty sound advice too..but dunno where it all comes from..never had most of dese problems myself..but i always have an opinion on it..and funny thing is..it actually works..

well guess this has gone far enough into blabber-zone..point is i think im a bit like squall..which is preposterous coz i shud b more like rinoa 2 win his heart..hehe..n in sum cases i am..yeah i know highly confusing..hopefully il make sum more sense henceforth..n mayb..jst mayb..will get 2 find a realtime squall of my own!!

hugh jackman v. wolverine

who do i like better??..hugh jackman..or the character he plays..ie. wolverine..actually come to think of it..i like almost all his movies..he seems to be equally comfortable playing the period xter caught in modern times in the romantic flick "kate and leopold"..the brilliant hacker in "swordfish"..confused pastless mutant wolverine in the "x-men" series..not to mention a mythical vampire killer in "van helsing"..in fact the only movie of his that i havnt watched is "someone like you" which i am currently madly looking for..lol

so it would seem like i like hugh jackman..which is quite true..but then i like him because of the xters he plays..as in i liked him bcoz of wolverine/van helsing etc..(by god hes smouldering onscreen)..offscreen hes obviously not the same..but then how do people bcum fans as such??..do they actually like the person or the xter he plays??..

for instance..i happen to like aamir khan as an actor..but as a guy no way!!..on the other hand i am not much impressed by srk's acting (cmon..all he does is cry and cry and cry..seriously even his comedies hav at least one crying scene..why god..why!!)..but as a person i quite admire him..after all how many celebrities have stuck to their spouses and that too an inter-religious one..and when has he ever been in any personal controversy??..but i seriously dont know why my frnds all go so ga-ga over him..

now coming back to the point of hugh jackman v. wolverine..wolverine definitely wins out..as a xter i luuuuuvvv him!!..and abt hugh jackman..lets just say i like his choice of roles..if that says anything about the person..well then..but wolverine is wow!!!..cant wait for his independant project "wolverine" to come out next yr..

interestingly..both van helsing and xmen has hugh jackman bcuming wolf-like..as in wolfman in helsing n d wolfish mutant in xmen..n also..in both, he kills his love with his own claws..albeit unintentionally in helsing..(luvd that ending..)

anyway..cheerio for now..
next in line: squall!!

bored musings!!

like i said..im bored..and since im not quite the kind to go around poring my heart out..so its gonna be slim pickins' here for sometime till i get the hang of it..

m not a poet or such..so no senti poems here..nor do i wanna rite huge ultra hi-fi political stuff..sometimes i wonder why im even writing this..hehe..well..here goes nothing..

rite now im watching ffvii-ac for the umpteenth time..just love the graphics..n d fight scenes r wow!!..plus its got my fav anime baddie: sephiroth..this is by far 1 of d best anime flicks iv seen..its cgi..so much bettr dan regular anime..watchd ffvii-last order dis aftee which was a small anime..the nebelheim stuff..about zack..dies in d end tryin to save cloud..i luv dis game..d whole series actually..d best story is of course ffviii..n im completely in luv with squall!!..wish deyd make it in2 a movie too..

anothr x'ter m in luv with is wolverine frm x-men..dunno y i always fall fr dese loner types..d ones with a forbidding exterior but a soft heart..sucker fr dem..wish i cud actually get 1 in real life..but all i get r wimps (maybe not..but definitely no wolverine or squall)..hehe..maybe my standards are too high..anyway..

well..its getting late and i gotta head back..
more later..

just..me..

dis is it..me..as usual royally bored..nothing 2 do..hence tryin my hand at bloggin..had created dis page ages bak in anothr fit of boredom..well..

guess abt time i introduced myself..
m a wannbe lawyer..rt now startin my 3rd yr in law school..as a person..well as i usually say "im indescribable.."..but if i hav 2 id say im crazy..absolutely certifiably lunatically crazzzy!!..

well since its only me whol b reading this column (possibly by now iv scared away any such hapless individual who wished 2 use my blog fr tp..poor thing), dis would be a no-holds-barred soul-bearing blog..absolutely irrelevant stuff straight from the mouths of moi..

so wait n watch!!

debbz