saturday night retrospections...

saturday nite..another week flown by..as always..lifes been too fast..and the last few years especially so..i can still quite clearly remember coming to this univ..a fresher as fresh as they come..and now here i am..in the Vth sem!!..with the second batch of juniors calling me "ma'am"..i still remember how all of us used to stick so close during our first sem..every meal and every walk..a bunch of us were everywhere..and now i look around and see pairs n small groups all around..dunno exactly when it began..this separation..not like we dont knw each other or dont like each other..just that..we have become so exclusive amongst ourselves n the little grp we have around us..we arent impersonal or anything..we interact n all..but we arent that personal either...and for what would seem like no reason at all..

funny how things like this happen..dont quite remember who said this..but a senior had told us that the togetherness would wear away in time..and the ppl we considered our closest frnds in the first sem would turn out to be more like acquaintances after second sem..and now i actually see it happening..apart from a choice few friends even i have shed the others..we used to have these major gossip sessions all tuesday nites (thats when we had hols on wednesdays..)..this huge grp of gals just sitting and bitching and talking utter nonsense..and it was just sooo much fun!!..and today again is a saturday...same as before...and soo different...im in my room..chatting away to glory..on gtalk...sumtimes even to those same friends with whom i sat down for sum nice old-fashioned "adda"..but now everyone has their own agenda..be it studying, movies, chatting, sleeping or just plain nothing..even i do..but a lil part of me reminiscences and still misses that tuesday-nite-ritual...

maybe we simply outgrew it..or maybe we thought we should since we had become "seniors"...but gradually a change came about..and we prefered to remain in our own little cocoons..its sad that yet again another batch will go thru the same process..sad that the very ppl they are walking to class with wont look back at them in a year..saddest of all is that it is inevitable..

and there i go again..all "oldy oldy" as someone would put it..talking as if im a grandma talking about the "good old days"..hehe..

anyway..enough of this..seems that even tho there is no gossip session in progress..i continue to talk utter crap!!..gotta get back to my ritual of movie-before-bed..
ciao..