adrift..

adrift in the middle of the nite..in a sea of boredom..adrift..in the ocean of..life?? (hehe..too corny)..feeling all weird n lonely n stuff like i usually get after reading too many doujins n fanfics..n on top of that there's this incredibly sad soundtrack of fma m listening to (well not really sad..just that my playlist right now consists of only the sad instrumentals..n every time i listen to it i keep on thinking of the series n well it doesn't really make me all happy inside..hehe)

kinda feel philo n poetic..wud pen down sumthg if i could..but as it is, m nt much in the habit of letting my artistic tendencies (yeah right!) embarrass me..feel like leaving everything n just walk off..roam around aimlessly..not knowing where m going..not knowing why m going..just going on..n on..taking each day as it comes..knowing that thats all that matters..the here n now..the present..wish life could be so simple na??..wish we didnt have to think of the damn future all the time..wish we could enjoy our time here w/o needless worries crowding our heads..wish i was born in another time n place..when it would not have been so complicated..i remember wen i was a kid i used to think it would be so cool to b born as some animal..they didnt hav school n could lie around the whole day w/o getting yelled at for being too lazy..hehe..

the idea still appeals to me..guess thats y i chose such an amazing profession (yes m being sarcastic here)..hehe..hopefully after slogging off for 20-30 years i'll finally get wat i've always wanted..blessed freedom!!..all my pent-up desires for roaming the world without bothering about anythg..gotta bottle them up till then..tho how much of a shape i'll be in to "roam" at that age i highly doubt..but at the rate m "de-ageing" i dnt think i'll feel any different about the idea..hehe..so wats left now is just one year of "play time"..gotta squeeze in all i can within this short time..n then..the big bad world awaits..so den everything on hiatus till m pretty much an old hag..lets see how far my plans pan out..for such meticulously laid plans tho, sumthgs bound to go wrong..my immense faith in murphy's laws can't fail me now..hehe..guess nothing left but to wait n watch then..n hopefully in 30 years' time, this blog will have some interesting travelogues too!!

dunno if all tht made sense or not..n not in d mood to go n check it all now..probably a true ramble this time..knw wat i want right now??..other than eternal sleep of course..hehe..a testimonial..been ages since i got one..n since m too lazy to write one dnt think i'll b getting one any time soon..unless i sandbag sum guy to do it..hmmm..chibi ero-sennin?? (lets sincerely hope he reads this n feels the overwhelming urge to write me one..tho he'd probably expect one back n m nt sure i can comply..but in any case..be a darling n write me one will ya!)

well dats it for now..
m half asleep in my chair anyway..
jaa..mata ne!!