Thursday, January 31, 2008
emo angsting at its zenith??
"feel like burying myself inside the pile of blankets..feel like locking the door and throwing the key away..feel like drowning myself in something..anything..just to be able to not think about..anything..just not have to think..period..my normal routine of numbing myself by watching movies..immersing my consciousness into reading or listening to music..till i am actually physically too exhausted to think straight..then dropping into bed..to go back to watching some dream or the other..and again to wake up to the same routine..repeated again..and again..and yet again..a monotonity that is as boring as it is comforting..a series of meaningless events just to pass the time..that's what my life has been reduced to..my room that has become almost a coccoon..my sanctuary..it's as if one world ends outside the door..and another begins on the opposite side..my world..where everything is "peachy"..always..it's like a broken record that is stuck at the same note..and short of pulling the plug on the machine i can't stop the noise..point is..where's the switch??"
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
emptiness..
it didn’t matter any more..now that he was gone..now that she had finally accomplished the one thing that she had set out to do..obliterated her one hindrance..the world was hers now..finally!!..so why did it seem so empty all of a sudden??..like by extinguishing that one life, the light of her own had somehow been extinguished..it didn’t make any sense..why??..why??..why??
she wanted to cry out in frustration..or just..cry??..no that was absurd..she..did..not..cry..never!!..ever..for anything..she just didn’t feel that much..did she??..then why does it hurt now??..she had heard of “heartache” before..and dismissed it as one of the many things she would never feel..could never feel..because of him..he was the one who was responsible for making her the unfeeling frigid monster she had become in the first place..after she had vowed her revenge against him for all that he had done to her..and finally gone through with it..after all those years..he was exactly where he should be..so why wasn’t she rejoicing right now??..why did it feel like her heart (did she even possess one??) was being ripped to pieces..
in her zeal to mete out judgement to her _____..what was he to her again??..enemy??..prey??.......childhood “idol” and first love??..the one person she thought would never do something like “that”..but all that had changed..the day he left..leaving her..betraying her..killing her..shattering all her naïve dreams..breaking all the bonds that had held him back he said??..n blind in her hero-worship of him, she had even agreed to go with him..just to be together..haha..what a fool she had been..not knowing who this person truly was even after spending almost all her life for him..
she had come a long way from back then..she had changed herself..because naïve fools like her didn’t survive in this world..the world he was the king of..n now she could claim it as hers..the hand that he had extended to her when they had met again after the years had changed her so much that he didn’t even recognize her for who he had once discarded so callously..to rule with him..to be her queen..by his side..she had taken that hand..and broken it..tortured it..and taken immense pleasure in doing so..the sadist that she was..and now that it was finally over..her reason for living evaporated..
she felt..alone..for the very first time..truly alone..for even through those times of pain and hardship, the one thing that had kept her going was the thought of defeating him..finally..at his own game..the desire to see his face contort in pain – and remembrance – was what had barely held her together when she almost fell apart from the sheer helplessness of it all..it’s said that the view from the top of the world might be breathtaking..but it was also terribly lonely..and the one person she had deemed capable of standing next to her – she had killed with her own hands..watched as the life slowly ebbed out of him..second after excruciating second..as the light left his eyes..as that still handsome face settled into a deathly calm..as the look of betrayal gave way to that of eternal sleep..
she walked through the empty house..out into the garden..their garden..past the flowers they had both planted..together..a lifetime ago..past that tree where they had passed many a lazy wintery afternoon..past that little bench which was exactly at the right place to look out over the valley..their valley..she looked at it all..seeing yet unseeing..it was like every tree, every flower, every blade of grass, every bit of everything..reeked of him..reminded her of him..of what was..a lifetime ago..
who was she??..all those months..that fake laugh..was more real than her real laugh..that mask she had worn for his sake..was what she had gradually become..that fantasy she had lived the past months..had become her reality..the unthinkable had happened..with the loss of her innocence, she had also lost any affection she had ever felt for the man who had compelled her into such a situation..but the monster that she had had to become..had fallen for the monster that he had always been..that innocent feeling she that nurtured for him when she was still a child had given way to something else..something deadly..
emptiness..that’s what she felt now..like she was hollow..and his voice was echoing inside..he hadn’t even known why she did what she did..he had died without knowing who she was and why she was wringing his life away from him..just like she had never understood the motives behind his actions that day either..his vague excuse of having to do “something” had never satisfied her..and she had thrown the same words back at him at his deathbed..just so he’d know how it felt..to be thrown away without understanding why..
and somehow..it was all meaningless..true she had all she wanted..but she could never tell anyone that..she could never scream out to the world how happy she was now that she had accomplished her one true goal..the only one who could ever understand how she felt now..was gone..everything had gone according to plan..but maybe it was a mistake to plan only till so far..she had truly never thought of how life would be after he was gone..in her desire to quench her thirst with his blood, she had never planned what to do when she felt thirsty again..her whole life had somehow been always dictated by his actions and she despised herself – and him – for it..which is why she had broken free..but even now when she had torn him like a thorn from a rose, she left like this rose would wilt without it??..why??..truth be told, maybe she had become a monster for him..maybe that was what she had always wanted..maybe she had always been trying to fulfil those childish dreams..her fairytale…..
but how does one get a “happily ever after” once the princess has killed prince charming??
just..don't ask..i should stay away from angsty fanfics n dumb mbs..till i get sane again..
ciao.. :)
she wanted to cry out in frustration..or just..cry??..no that was absurd..she..did..not..cry..never!!..ever..for anything..she just didn’t feel that much..did she??..then why does it hurt now??..she had heard of “heartache” before..and dismissed it as one of the many things she would never feel..could never feel..because of him..he was the one who was responsible for making her the unfeeling frigid monster she had become in the first place..after she had vowed her revenge against him for all that he had done to her..and finally gone through with it..after all those years..he was exactly where he should be..so why wasn’t she rejoicing right now??..why did it feel like her heart (did she even possess one??) was being ripped to pieces..
in her zeal to mete out judgement to her _____..what was he to her again??..enemy??..prey??.......childhood “idol” and first love??..the one person she thought would never do something like “that”..but all that had changed..the day he left..leaving her..betraying her..killing her..shattering all her naïve dreams..breaking all the bonds that had held him back he said??..n blind in her hero-worship of him, she had even agreed to go with him..just to be together..haha..what a fool she had been..not knowing who this person truly was even after spending almost all her life for him..
she had come a long way from back then..she had changed herself..because naïve fools like her didn’t survive in this world..the world he was the king of..n now she could claim it as hers..the hand that he had extended to her when they had met again after the years had changed her so much that he didn’t even recognize her for who he had once discarded so callously..to rule with him..to be her queen..by his side..she had taken that hand..and broken it..tortured it..and taken immense pleasure in doing so..the sadist that she was..and now that it was finally over..her reason for living evaporated..
she felt..alone..for the very first time..truly alone..for even through those times of pain and hardship, the one thing that had kept her going was the thought of defeating him..finally..at his own game..the desire to see his face contort in pain – and remembrance – was what had barely held her together when she almost fell apart from the sheer helplessness of it all..it’s said that the view from the top of the world might be breathtaking..but it was also terribly lonely..and the one person she had deemed capable of standing next to her – she had killed with her own hands..watched as the life slowly ebbed out of him..second after excruciating second..as the light left his eyes..as that still handsome face settled into a deathly calm..as the look of betrayal gave way to that of eternal sleep..
she walked through the empty house..out into the garden..their garden..past the flowers they had both planted..together..a lifetime ago..past that tree where they had passed many a lazy wintery afternoon..past that little bench which was exactly at the right place to look out over the valley..their valley..she looked at it all..seeing yet unseeing..it was like every tree, every flower, every blade of grass, every bit of everything..reeked of him..reminded her of him..of what was..a lifetime ago..
who was she??..all those months..that fake laugh..was more real than her real laugh..that mask she had worn for his sake..was what she had gradually become..that fantasy she had lived the past months..had become her reality..the unthinkable had happened..with the loss of her innocence, she had also lost any affection she had ever felt for the man who had compelled her into such a situation..but the monster that she had had to become..had fallen for the monster that he had always been..that innocent feeling she that nurtured for him when she was still a child had given way to something else..something deadly..
emptiness..that’s what she felt now..like she was hollow..and his voice was echoing inside..he hadn’t even known why she did what she did..he had died without knowing who she was and why she was wringing his life away from him..just like she had never understood the motives behind his actions that day either..his vague excuse of having to do “something” had never satisfied her..and she had thrown the same words back at him at his deathbed..just so he’d know how it felt..to be thrown away without understanding why..
and somehow..it was all meaningless..true she had all she wanted..but she could never tell anyone that..she could never scream out to the world how happy she was now that she had accomplished her one true goal..the only one who could ever understand how she felt now..was gone..everything had gone according to plan..but maybe it was a mistake to plan only till so far..she had truly never thought of how life would be after he was gone..in her desire to quench her thirst with his blood, she had never planned what to do when she felt thirsty again..her whole life had somehow been always dictated by his actions and she despised herself – and him – for it..which is why she had broken free..but even now when she had torn him like a thorn from a rose, she left like this rose would wilt without it??..why??..truth be told, maybe she had become a monster for him..maybe that was what she had always wanted..maybe she had always been trying to fulfil those childish dreams..her fairytale…..
but how does one get a “happily ever after” once the princess has killed prince charming??
just..don't ask..i should stay away from angsty fanfics n dumb mbs..till i get sane again..
ciao.. :)
Saturday, January 26, 2008
dream scape..
just completed the tsubasa chroncile franchise..n m soooo in luuuuuuuv with it..even tho the 2nd season was a bit bleh at times, the ova makes up for that..200%!!..can't wait for the 3rd ep..n sincerely hope they make more ova series..n with production ig!!..if i see more chibiness in place of the true manga story m gonna scream..it totally deserves to be a dark anime with how the manga is being written..clamp is the best!!..n did i mention, kuroxfay is love..L.O.V.E..totally..n its even canon now!!..yieee..i haven't been this fangirly abt a pairing since sasuxnaru or royxed..anyway before i get sucked into one of my "kyaaaaa!!" phases n start drooling over said yummy bishies doing _____ (umm..lets not go into more details here..just leave it at being definitely massive nosebleed material..lol)..lemme get on with the post as it was initially intended then..apart from a top-notch storyline n amazing characters you'll fall in love with, it also has a brilliant soundtrack..the background scores r fab..n even tho i normally don't like insert songs much..these do take the cake.."aikoi" makes me wanna jump up n start dancing (n its been quite a while since that happened..n oddly enough every time i hear it i keep on picturing yuna dancing to it like in the ffx-2 intro!! :O ..dunno why.."real emotion" wasn't that much of a fav anyway..totally weird).."dream scape" on the other hand has the most beautiful lyrics ever..i know its been too long since i last posted any song lyrics, i guess this deserves it tho..so here goes..
well thats it for now..looking forward to an extended weekend now..lets see what all it holds..other than a jap marathon..hehe..
jaa..mata ne!!
~ Dream Scape ~
Mita koto no nai kusa no umi ga
Gin-iro ni yurete zawameite
Yume to utsutsu no sakaime atari no keshiki
Kimi ni deau tame?
Soretomo mada minai dareka no hitomi no tame
Kaze wo wakete yuku
Dream scape...
Mou sugu naru yo ne, mezamashi no oto
Demo sono saki mo mada yume ka mo shirenai ne
Daiji na mono wa doko ni ita tte amari kawaranai yo ne
Mezametemo mada koko ni iyou to omou yo
Sore ga yuuki to iu mono ka to mo omou yo
Sittin' in the silence... Everlasting night breeze
(I believe... I deceive... I relieve...)
Kurasugite mienai dake sa...
In my...
Nakitaku nakute houtte atta mune no sasakure ni
Imagoro oikakerarete iki mo tsukenakute
Shigamitsuite ita shinjitsu ga boroboro ni karete ochiru made
Ima chotto mienai dake sa...
Genjitsu datte yume datte
Kimi wo mayowaseru dake dakara sa
Sakamichi no ue no magarikado, ikutsu demo sono saki ni ikitai
Ongaku no naka ni shika nai fuukei no mukou e
Kurasugite mienai dake sa...
Yume no tsudzuki ni wa yume ga
Nanairo no meiro mitai ni
Onkai no nai kusabue ni uta wo mitsukeru tame ni
Hirosugite me ga kurandemo
Utaisugite nodo ga karetemo
Mita koto no nai kusa no umi wo
Tatoe kimi ga inaku nattemo
Kurasugite mienai dake sa...
Dream scape...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Mita koto no nai kusa no umi ga
Gin-iro ni yurete zawameite
Yume to utsutsu no sakaime atari no keshiki
Kimi ni deau tame?
Soretomo mada minai dareka no hitomi no tame
Kaze wo wakete yuku
Dream scape...
Mou sugu naru yo ne, mezamashi no oto
Demo sono saki mo mada yume ka mo shirenai ne
Daiji na mono wa doko ni ita tte amari kawaranai yo ne
Mezametemo mada koko ni iyou to omou yo
Sore ga yuuki to iu mono ka to mo omou yo
Sittin' in the silence... Everlasting night breeze
(I believe... I deceive... I relieve...)
Kurasugite mienai dake sa...
In my...
Nakitaku nakute houtte atta mune no sasakure ni
Imagoro oikakerarete iki mo tsukenakute
Shigamitsuite ita shinjitsu ga boroboro ni karete ochiru made
Ima chotto mienai dake sa...
Genjitsu datte yume datte
Kimi wo mayowaseru dake dakara sa
Sakamichi no ue no magarikado, ikutsu demo sono saki ni ikitai
Ongaku no naka ni shika nai fuukei no mukou e
Kurasugite mienai dake sa...
Yume no tsudzuki ni wa yume ga
Nanairo no meiro mitai ni
Onkai no nai kusabue ni uta wo mitsukeru tame ni
Hirosugite me ga kurandemo
Utaisugite nodo ga karetemo
Mita koto no nai kusa no umi wo
Tatoe kimi ga inaku nattemo
Kurasugite mienai dake sa...
Dream scape...
~ Dream Scape ~ (translated)
A sea of grass I've never seen
Is swaying and rustling in the silver
This is the scenery at the border between dreams and waking reality
Is it in order to meet you?
Or is it for the eyes of someone I still haven't seen?
I'll go on, dividing the wind
Dream scape...
The alarm clock will ring soon, huh?
But what's beyond that might still be a dream, right?
No matter where you are, your precious things don't change, you know
Even if I wake up, I'm sure I'll still be right here
I think that might be what they call courage
Sittin' in the silence... Everlasting night breeze
(I believe... I deceive... I relieve...)
It's just that it's too dark to see...
In my...
The fragment of my heart that I flung away because I didn't want to cry
Is chasing after me now, until I can't even catch my breath
And the reality I clung to withers and falls, piece by piece
It's just that I can't quite see right now...
Whether it's a dream or reality
It will just confuse you
However many bends there are in the road at the top of the hill, I want to go beyond them
To the other side of the scenery that exists only in music
It's just that it's too dark to see...
There's another dream in the continuation of a dream,
Like a maze with seven colors
In order to find a song in a reed pipe that can't play scales,
Even if it's too vast and my eyes get dizzy,
Even if I sing too much and dry out my throat,
I'll take that sea of grass I've never seen and...
Even if you disappear...
It's just that it's too dark to see...
Dream scape...
A sea of grass I've never seen
Is swaying and rustling in the silver
This is the scenery at the border between dreams and waking reality
Is it in order to meet you?
Or is it for the eyes of someone I still haven't seen?
I'll go on, dividing the wind
Dream scape...
The alarm clock will ring soon, huh?
But what's beyond that might still be a dream, right?
No matter where you are, your precious things don't change, you know
Even if I wake up, I'm sure I'll still be right here
I think that might be what they call courage
Sittin' in the silence... Everlasting night breeze
(I believe... I deceive... I relieve...)
It's just that it's too dark to see...
In my...
The fragment of my heart that I flung away because I didn't want to cry
Is chasing after me now, until I can't even catch my breath
And the reality I clung to withers and falls, piece by piece
It's just that I can't quite see right now...
Whether it's a dream or reality
It will just confuse you
However many bends there are in the road at the top of the hill, I want to go beyond them
To the other side of the scenery that exists only in music
It's just that it's too dark to see...
There's another dream in the continuation of a dream,
Like a maze with seven colors
In order to find a song in a reed pipe that can't play scales,
Even if it's too vast and my eyes get dizzy,
Even if I sing too much and dry out my throat,
I'll take that sea of grass I've never seen and...
Even if you disappear...
It's just that it's too dark to see...
Dream scape...
well thats it for now..looking forward to an extended weekend now..lets see what all it holds..other than a jap marathon..hehe..
jaa..mata ne!!
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
adrift..
adrift in the middle of the nite..in a sea of boredom..adrift..in the ocean of..life?? (hehe..too corny)..feeling all weird n lonely n stuff like i usually get after reading too many doujins n fanfics..n on top of that there's this incredibly sad soundtrack of fma m listening to (well not really sad..just that my playlist right now consists of only the sad instrumentals..n every time i listen to it i keep on thinking of the series n well it doesn't really make me all happy inside..hehe)
kinda feel philo n poetic..wud pen down sumthg if i could..but as it is, m nt much in the habit of letting my artistic tendencies (yeah right!) embarrass me..feel like leaving everything n just walk off..roam around aimlessly..not knowing where m going..not knowing why m going..just going on..n on..taking each day as it comes..knowing that thats all that matters..the here n now..the present..wish life could be so simple na??..wish we didnt have to think of the damn future all the time..wish we could enjoy our time here w/o needless worries crowding our heads..wish i was born in another time n place..when it would not have been so complicated..i remember wen i was a kid i used to think it would be so cool to b born as some animal..they didnt hav school n could lie around the whole day w/o getting yelled at for being too lazy..hehe..
the idea still appeals to me..guess thats y i chose such an amazing profession (yes m being sarcastic here)..hehe..hopefully after slogging off for 20-30 years i'll finally get wat i've always wanted..blessed freedom!!..all my pent-up desires for roaming the world without bothering about anythg..gotta bottle them up till then..tho how much of a shape i'll be in to "roam" at that age i highly doubt..but at the rate m "de-ageing" i dnt think i'll feel any different about the idea..hehe..so wats left now is just one year of "play time"..gotta squeeze in all i can within this short time..n then..the big bad world awaits..so den everything on hiatus till m pretty much an old hag..lets see how far my plans pan out..for such meticulously laid plans tho, sumthgs bound to go wrong..my immense faith in murphy's laws can't fail me now..hehe..guess nothing left but to wait n watch then..n hopefully in 30 years' time, this blog will have some interesting travelogues too!!
dunno if all tht made sense or not..n not in d mood to go n check it all now..probably a true ramble this time..knw wat i want right now??..other than eternal sleep of course..hehe..a testimonial..been ages since i got one..n since m too lazy to write one dnt think i'll b getting one any time soon..unless i sandbag sum guy to do it..hmmm..chibi ero-sennin?? (lets sincerely hope he reads this n feels the overwhelming urge to write me one..tho he'd probably expect one back n m nt sure i can comply..but in any case..be a darling n write me one will ya!)
well dats it for now..
m half asleep in my chair anyway..
jaa..mata ne!!
kinda feel philo n poetic..wud pen down sumthg if i could..but as it is, m nt much in the habit of letting my artistic tendencies (yeah right!) embarrass me..feel like leaving everything n just walk off..roam around aimlessly..not knowing where m going..not knowing why m going..just going on..n on..taking each day as it comes..knowing that thats all that matters..the here n now..the present..wish life could be so simple na??..wish we didnt have to think of the damn future all the time..wish we could enjoy our time here w/o needless worries crowding our heads..wish i was born in another time n place..when it would not have been so complicated..i remember wen i was a kid i used to think it would be so cool to b born as some animal..they didnt hav school n could lie around the whole day w/o getting yelled at for being too lazy..hehe..
the idea still appeals to me..guess thats y i chose such an amazing profession (yes m being sarcastic here)..hehe..hopefully after slogging off for 20-30 years i'll finally get wat i've always wanted..blessed freedom!!..all my pent-up desires for roaming the world without bothering about anythg..gotta bottle them up till then..tho how much of a shape i'll be in to "roam" at that age i highly doubt..but at the rate m "de-ageing" i dnt think i'll feel any different about the idea..hehe..so wats left now is just one year of "play time"..gotta squeeze in all i can within this short time..n then..the big bad world awaits..so den everything on hiatus till m pretty much an old hag..lets see how far my plans pan out..for such meticulously laid plans tho, sumthgs bound to go wrong..my immense faith in murphy's laws can't fail me now..hehe..guess nothing left but to wait n watch then..n hopefully in 30 years' time, this blog will have some interesting travelogues too!!
dunno if all tht made sense or not..n not in d mood to go n check it all now..probably a true ramble this time..knw wat i want right now??..other than eternal sleep of course..hehe..a testimonial..been ages since i got one..n since m too lazy to write one dnt think i'll b getting one any time soon..unless i sandbag sum guy to do it..hmmm..chibi ero-sennin?? (lets sincerely hope he reads this n feels the overwhelming urge to write me one..tho he'd probably expect one back n m nt sure i can comply..but in any case..be a darling n write me one will ya!)
well dats it for now..
m half asleep in my chair anyway..
jaa..mata ne!!
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
.......................... untitled ramblings..??
dunno how to start..where to start..what to start at..its been such a long time since iv blogged..n there's obviously hundreds of things that i shud have to talk about..n i do..more like there's just too much!!..exam blues (like i need to explain that)..journey back home (mandore was a hoot!)..vacations..meeting old frnds (not everyone..but everyone who mattered)..school visit (yes..finally!!)..bros marriage (wich put the makers of "hum aapke hai kaun" to shame..n thats saying sumthg!)..bday (1st one in years to b spent at home..missed the midnite craziness but the rest of the day made up for that..and how!)..cal visit (actually "talked" to my fav - only - kid bro in quite sum time..felt soo nostalgic..n the day was over b4 i knew it)..new years' (half the usual crowd wasnt even thr..but wasnt all that bad either)..new sem..jurisprudence guest faculty woes (yessss..it is the great vss :P)..etc..etc..etc..n all the hilarious incidents in b/w..not to mention my regular stream of anime n dorama inputs..along with a quite liberal dosage of the "normal" (read sumthg in english/hindi) stuff i watch..all of it would obviously nt fit into one entry nor will i even attempt that..if iv been too lazy to do so wen the "cause of action arose", figures i wudnt b too enthusiastic about it so late in the day either..hehe..
fact of the matter is..i almost feel like m still vacationing..wat with our amazing hons. classes (wich r yet to commence..bless snehdeep!) wich leaves me with a free day frm 1.30..like a sunday everyday given my normal schedule..hehe..of course i find numerous past times to pass my suddenly overabundant free time..but the familiar feeling of being bored is set in again..jst over a week into the sem n i already feel like its been a month at the very least..same ol' same ol'..
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yeah..nothing to write..of course not like m outta words n stuff (ask mads n ananya..they'd heartily disagree to the fact that i can ever stop blabbing..n i do mean ever!)..just too lazy i guess (again ask them..my laziness is stuff of legends i tell ya! :P)..n before i start making an absolute mess of an entry n turn myself into a total idiot by blabbering randomly of nothing of consequence (already guilty?)..better let off now..n get goin fr dinner..sdl..first time this sem..n its of course no surprise that m nt too thrilled abt the "journey" :P
so till i feel less lazy..
mata ne!
ps: "taare zameen par" is the best bollywood has offered up in years..maybe ever..totally made me forget the trauma that was "saawariya" (n it wud take an awful lot to do that lemme tell ya)..just goes on to show that u dnt need a six-pack to make a winner..in ur face!! ha!!
fact of the matter is..i almost feel like m still vacationing..wat with our amazing hons. classes (wich r yet to commence..bless snehdeep!) wich leaves me with a free day frm 1.30..like a sunday everyday given my normal schedule..hehe..of course i find numerous past times to pass my suddenly overabundant free time..but the familiar feeling of being bored is set in again..jst over a week into the sem n i already feel like its been a month at the very least..same ol' same ol'..
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yeah..nothing to write..of course not like m outta words n stuff (ask mads n ananya..they'd heartily disagree to the fact that i can ever stop blabbing..n i do mean ever!)..just too lazy i guess (again ask them..my laziness is stuff of legends i tell ya! :P)..n before i start making an absolute mess of an entry n turn myself into a total idiot by blabbering randomly of nothing of consequence (already guilty?)..better let off now..n get goin fr dinner..sdl..first time this sem..n its of course no surprise that m nt too thrilled abt the "journey" :P
so till i feel less lazy..
mata ne!
ps: "taare zameen par" is the best bollywood has offered up in years..maybe ever..totally made me forget the trauma that was "saawariya" (n it wud take an awful lot to do that lemme tell ya)..just goes on to show that u dnt need a six-pack to make a winner..in ur face!! ha!!
Saturday, October 27, 2007
about philo stuff..or the lack of it..
been reading recent blog entries of a few frnds..n what struck me was that almost everyone writes abt all this hi-fi philo stuff..or these reallly thoughtful meaningful poems..or some deep political mumbo jumbo..basically all very "adult" entries..whereas in contrast mine seems to be (the pathetically juvenile) ramblings of some super-hyper kindergarten kid..or a 4th year college student who thinks she can behave like one!! (which i think comes off as much worse)..anyway a blog is supposed to be about what one wants to write..from the heart..like a diary where ud chronicle ur innermost thoughts..which is of course not very feasible here considering the open-ness of it all..one really would not want to be writing abt their first crushes n such when theres a good chance that their parents might b taking a trip to blogland sumtime..or worse still - their irritating younger sisters who'd blackmail them for life if anything like this fell in their hands :P..hehe..so is it solely for their reading pleasure that all high funda stuff seems to spew out n adorn these blogs??..or is it coz people actually do think that way n hence write abt it much as i write my blab accounts??..coz if its the latter, then i cant help but feel that im lacking sumthg sumhow..if people my age are supposed to converse in such pompous language n talk about such pompous stuff, then im probably quite far behind all that..make no mistake, i do have my philo moments too..and have in fact given forth many a deep meaningful dialogue (n yes another point..why call it a "dialogue" when in fact its actually a "monologue"???..beats me!)..even i can write using nice looooong utterly obscure terminology but i just dnt think my blog is the proper forum for it..id much rather save it all up n use it during shasthris exam next week!!..n maybe spare some for ap singh n poddy too..hehe..anyhoo..yet every time i chance thru sumones blog i feel like i should put sumthg similar even if jst to show that "i can"..which is, of course, a highly absurd idea considering how less im supposed to regard others' opinions..but its like..steadily..my opinion on my own blog is changing..i normally write like how i wud converse with my "voices"..so maybe my voices need to mature a bit??..or maybe i need to in order to hold more "intelligent" conversations with them?? (n now iv finally crossed over that edge rt??..talking about conversations..intelligent and otherwise..with my "voices"??..hehe)..but its true..even right now theres this lil voice "dictating" this as i type..my own personal "beta"??..hehe..well anyway the question remains largely unanswered..n by now m nt even sure what the question is!
well this probably turned out to be even more random than my normal random blab accounts!!..but then thats me i guess..even if i think id like to get all deeply philo id probably end up just blabbing anyway..so cheers to even more "crazzzy times" by crazzzy me..hehe..anyway exam time now..which means id b outta the loop fr quite sum time..so the next update can be expected sumtime during the vacations at the earliest..
wish me luck then..
ciao..
ps: wishing probably for the zillion-th time that id made my blog anonymous!!
well this probably turned out to be even more random than my normal random blab accounts!!..but then thats me i guess..even if i think id like to get all deeply philo id probably end up just blabbing anyway..so cheers to even more "crazzzy times" by crazzzy me..hehe..anyway exam time now..which means id b outta the loop fr quite sum time..so the next update can be expected sumtime during the vacations at the earliest..
wish me luck then..
ciao..
ps: wishing probably for the zillion-th time that id made my blog anonymous!!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
sashiburi da ne??
ohhayooo minna-san!!..sashiburi da ne??..yep been long since i updated here..n whats the momentous occasion this morning u ask??..well its a ppt so no first class!!..yieee fr me!!..god bless firms n companies n their ppts..hehe..i luuuuv impromtu class cancellations..n suddenly felt like il spend this hour catching up on ppls blogs n before long i wanted to write stuff myself..hehe..well here i am then..been verrrry busy recently..last min stuff again..n as usual m being a total lazybones about it..have sooo much work that i actually feel buried..n the endsems have already crossed that "corner"..so while everyones happily celebrating durga pujas m sitting finishing pending work..not to mention, my sis wud b visiting fr a few days frm friday..dunno how il manage to work n show her around as well..anyhoo..lets cross that bridge wen we come to it..in the famous words of our famous vss..hehe..which reminds me that i hav his class (more like an excuse for a staring contest if u ask me!) this morning..mendokuse!!!!
well so wat have i been upto these days apart from work??..a massive intake of himym..in other words "how i met your mother"..an amazing series..n i sooo luuuuv barney..cant blv hes the same doogie howser kid i saw over this summer!! (man they sure grow up so fast ne?? :P)..in his immortal words - its "legennnnn-wait-for-it-daaarrryyy"..hehe..other than this..my regular stream of animes n doramas continues..started on all these new animes..some really good..some totally crap..n one which is probably meant for 2-yr olds but i watch it anyway..hehe..but mostly not that bad..nothing as path-breaking as "death note" or "claymore" or "darker than black" n stuff..but nothing nauseating like "school days" either..n best news so far is that "d.gray-man" is continuing!!..would have sucked had it actually ended at 52 eps..but thankfully its back to the true manga story n roaring on..cant wait to see allens new arm..hopefully in a few eps if they dont decide to go all shippuuden on us (which, btw, has decided to stop airing for weeks on end now for what purpose god only knows!!..i mean cmon the mangas waaaay ahead so just get on with it already!!)
so work aspect..check!..neverending rants about anime..check!..what else is left then??..ohhh yesssss.."pokemon news" :P ..hehe..no no i havnt discovered a latent love for the series (still consider it yuck even aftr all of ananyas ministrations to the contrary..hehe :D)..it merely refers to my love for poking ppl..like all the freaking time..(note: certain ppl b informed that i refer to normal "pokes" here..n not the special variety i subject certain ppl to..henceforth poke shall only mean poke and not *poke*..hehe..aaahh as if u didnt know already..but then cudnt resist the crack there..hehe)..n yes i do mean it about all the freaking time..just ask ghosty who has the misfortune to sit right in front of me in class and has to bear the brunt of it usually..or ananya n mads who also get their due share of my famous pokes..hence the name "pokemon"..n so about "pokemon news"..basically that there is no news at all..i sooo miss poking ppl but now-a-days m mostly sleeping in class..or ppl r sleeping themselves..or busy..so poor lil pokemon had to go underground for sometime..which she made up for by behaving like the hyperactive perpetually drunk lil baby that she is..m thinking of terming it as the "mental pokemon mode"..hehe..
so there it is..half of my hour-long holiday gone..the other half to be spent in checking for updates on few fanfics n probably finishing this multi-chappy one m currently reading..lessee wen i get to write next..oh n seems like winters on the way for sure now..gotten real dry..n quite chilly in the early mornings..now if only the days could get cooler too!!
anyway..toodles for now..
jaa..mata ne!!
ps: naruto ost 3 is a drug..period..
edit @ 12.43 pm:
no hons class after all..n better still no more classes!!..in other words no more staring!!..yiee!!..met the great vss himself outside n made the humongous mistake of asking him whether we have class or not..but of course he wont reply in the simple "no"..oh no not him..it was at least a min long monologue as to how "regular classes have hereinafter been notified to be suspended due to the completion of the syllabus.." or something like that..n how i should come give my project viva sometime..of course i dnt retain the exact pompous words..but i remember it included terms such as "your excellency" and "knocking on doors"..dunno y tho..guess i switch off even wen not in class..hehe..an automatic conditioned response..hehe..
but anyway before i launch fully into one of my "bashing phases"..lemme just leave it off here for now..after all i intended to just state that we actually ended up not having his class..n look at how m gettin drifted off again..hehe..
so bbye..tata..again..
ciao..
well so wat have i been upto these days apart from work??..a massive intake of himym..in other words "how i met your mother"..an amazing series..n i sooo luuuuv barney..cant blv hes the same doogie howser kid i saw over this summer!! (man they sure grow up so fast ne?? :P)..in his immortal words - its "legennnnn-wait-for-it-daaarrryyy"..hehe..other than this..my regular stream of animes n doramas continues..started on all these new animes..some really good..some totally crap..n one which is probably meant for 2-yr olds but i watch it anyway..hehe..but mostly not that bad..nothing as path-breaking as "death note" or "claymore" or "darker than black" n stuff..but nothing nauseating like "school days" either..n best news so far is that "d.gray-man" is continuing!!..would have sucked had it actually ended at 52 eps..but thankfully its back to the true manga story n roaring on..cant wait to see allens new arm..hopefully in a few eps if they dont decide to go all shippuuden on us (which, btw, has decided to stop airing for weeks on end now for what purpose god only knows!!..i mean cmon the mangas waaaay ahead so just get on with it already!!)
so work aspect..check!..neverending rants about anime..check!..what else is left then??..ohhh yesssss.."pokemon news" :P ..hehe..no no i havnt discovered a latent love for the series (still consider it yuck even aftr all of ananyas ministrations to the contrary..hehe :D)..it merely refers to my love for poking ppl..like all the freaking time..(note: certain ppl b informed that i refer to normal "pokes" here..n not the special variety i subject certain ppl to..henceforth poke shall only mean poke and not *poke*..hehe..aaahh as if u didnt know already..but then cudnt resist the crack there..hehe)..n yes i do mean it about all the freaking time..just ask ghosty who has the misfortune to sit right in front of me in class and has to bear the brunt of it usually..or ananya n mads who also get their due share of my famous pokes..hence the name "pokemon"..n so about "pokemon news"..basically that there is no news at all..i sooo miss poking ppl but now-a-days m mostly sleeping in class..or ppl r sleeping themselves..or busy..so poor lil pokemon had to go underground for sometime..which she made up for by behaving like the hyperactive perpetually drunk lil baby that she is..m thinking of terming it as the "mental pokemon mode"..hehe..
so there it is..half of my hour-long holiday gone..the other half to be spent in checking for updates on few fanfics n probably finishing this multi-chappy one m currently reading..lessee wen i get to write next..oh n seems like winters on the way for sure now..gotten real dry..n quite chilly in the early mornings..now if only the days could get cooler too!!
anyway..toodles for now..
jaa..mata ne!!
ps: naruto ost 3 is a drug..period..
edit @ 12.43 pm:
no hons class after all..n better still no more classes!!..in other words no more staring!!..yiee!!..met the great vss himself outside n made the humongous mistake of asking him whether we have class or not..but of course he wont reply in the simple "no"..oh no not him..it was at least a min long monologue as to how "regular classes have hereinafter been notified to be suspended due to the completion of the syllabus.." or something like that..n how i should come give my project viva sometime..of course i dnt retain the exact pompous words..but i remember it included terms such as "your excellency" and "knocking on doors"..dunno y tho..guess i switch off even wen not in class..hehe..an automatic conditioned response..hehe..
but anyway before i launch fully into one of my "bashing phases"..lemme just leave it off here for now..after all i intended to just state that we actually ended up not having his class..n look at how m gettin drifted off again..hehe..
so bbye..tata..again..
ciao..
Saturday, September 29, 2007
"humma humma"
cultural week on in full swing..last night were the dance recitals..solo, duet n group..n day before yesterday we got the sudden urge to participate..ananya n me..so we thought we'd choose some song n pick up some steps..well n good..the whole day went by n zilch done..n we're like "we are dancing right??..its tomorrow..we'll manage..we have the night.."..well the night came n went..we had fun..did stuff..slept..no dancing..the day of the competition dawned n us with still no idea as to what we are doing..or whether we are even gonna go through with it or not..riddhis group practising like crazy in the corridor..missing classes n all..but us??..naaaa..pretty chilled..first two periods go by without notice..m half asleep n dozing off..third period mads finds out her moots been postponed to next saturday n she's free too..(n btw..all this time..we are still like.."we are still dancing aren't we??..its this evening!!..we'll manage..")..so with mads on board as well we finally decide to draw up a list of songs to choose from..3rd class over n still left with this huuuge list..thankfully 4th was hons. classes..which they didnt have n i thought id be done with early coz it was jst this teeny portion of shavii's presentation..but no such luck..thanks to the eternal crap-meister's relentless efforts in keeping us in till the very last moment!!..uggghhh..god!! didnt knw people could actually crap soo much..but lemme not deviate into discussions on crapping prowess exhibited during our cri. hons. classes..that's best saved for another day and another entry..anyway so i finally managed to detach myself n rushed back..hoping that some significant progress had occurred in my absence..thankfully the list had been narrowed down considerably..2.15 n we are down to just two songs..its either "humma humma" or "mangalyam"..but on the flip side, we have class from 2.30 till 4.30 n the thing starts at 7..come 2.45 we are pretty much decided on "humma humma" n have all these random ideas..3.00 we get called to class for pil attendance..sucks!!!.. but by 3.30 we are back..pil and ipr attendance taken care of..n 3 joshi's chairs flicked fr props..hehe..n then we really get down to it in earnest..n slowly it all takes form..barely three hours later we can quite proudly say that we've come up with a pretty well choreographed piece..a few finishing touches n practice sessions later we are good to go..last min scramble to get us registered n submit the song in time (the duets n solos had already started by then!!)..found out we're on in 10 mins!!..n we werent even ready yet..somehow managed to dress up n everything in time..n actually with time to spare for some more last min practice n the inevitable oh-my-god-im-gonna-forget-the-steps-n-embarrass-myself-in-front- of-the-whole-univ jitters (n of course the "do i look too fat??" jitters as well..hehe)..n before we knew it, it was our turn..n in a flash it was all over..thankfully we didnt mess it up..didnt forget or stand there looking stupid..n for something cooked up in 3 hours it was jolly good (even if i do say so myself..hehe)..we did get a fair share of cheers n applause..n even had people coming up n saying that they were surprised that we (read "i") could dance at all since this was the first for both mads n me in the univ (not counting the dance party thingies of course)..n apparantly i did not look like a stick up there..yiee me!!..but unfortunately noone payed us the ultimate compliment of "its a gem!! its a gem!!"..hehe..but anyway the whole thing was a hoot..we had an amazing time preparing n dancing..loads of fun..
so well that was it..dead tired after the thing was over..dunno how we managed the trip to n back from sdl..for the first time we actually ordered individual thalis (though we still maintain that its much more fun sharing one n just tearing upon the food as it comes..not to mention its amazing for the pocket too..hehe)..hogged like no tomorrow..felt like we hadnt eaten in days..by the time we were done i was feeling all laaazzzyy n satisfied which comes only with a well fed tummy..hehe..dnt remm the return journey much..came back to room..verrry "drunk" (but then m perpetually that way according to mads..hehe)..legs were killing me by then..just wanted to drop on the bed n never wake up again..but had work..n still had to make that crappy presentation fr today as well..almost made me wanna go bang my head sumplace..thankfully i had already pretty much completed the research aspect of it n just the typing was left..managed to make some sense outta it somehow..left almost half to be done this morning..was gonna wake up early but for me thats but a dream rt??..hehe..anyway managed to finish it properly and on time..regardless of lappy charger malfunctions (more like non-functions), mysterious disappearances of saved material n untimely power cuts..but alls well that ends well..presentation went fine..even though vss did come back halfway through it (yeah he wasnt supposed to be thr..but much to gas' glee he returned early) n there was a lotttt of crap flung around as usual..n my 20 mins presentation dragged on for the whole hour..n now hopefully those two will decide among themselves how much they wanna give me..
anyway m too sleepy again now..but m in suchhhh a bugging kinda mood..n theres noone to bug..aaahhhhhh!!!..its been a looong time since i actually wanted to bug someone soo much..but no matter..it wud probably not be that much fun with me feeling sooo sleepy like this..whatever..m just gonna go ahead n start dreaming..theres this very specific idea i have right now..would luuuv to dream abt that..so better get a move on before i get all wakey-wakey again..
jaa mata ne!!
ciao.. :)
ps: dandiya night tomm..n only ananya wants to go while the rest of us think that its just too much of a pain to get all dressed up n everything..but i know that even after all our plans of not going, in the end we'll all end up going anyway..like last time also it was a last min plan n we went verry late n ended up taking too many pics as usual with not much dancing thrown in..anyhoo..m going out so m ruled out anyway (too bad would miss the scavenger hunt as well)..but lets see if we all have a night out or i get dragged in after iv come back!!
so well that was it..dead tired after the thing was over..dunno how we managed the trip to n back from sdl..for the first time we actually ordered individual thalis (though we still maintain that its much more fun sharing one n just tearing upon the food as it comes..not to mention its amazing for the pocket too..hehe)..hogged like no tomorrow..felt like we hadnt eaten in days..by the time we were done i was feeling all laaazzzyy n satisfied which comes only with a well fed tummy..hehe..dnt remm the return journey much..came back to room..verrry "drunk" (but then m perpetually that way according to mads..hehe)..legs were killing me by then..just wanted to drop on the bed n never wake up again..but had work..n still had to make that crappy presentation fr today as well..almost made me wanna go bang my head sumplace..thankfully i had already pretty much completed the research aspect of it n just the typing was left..managed to make some sense outta it somehow..left almost half to be done this morning..was gonna wake up early but for me thats but a dream rt??..hehe..anyway managed to finish it properly and on time..regardless of lappy charger malfunctions (more like non-functions), mysterious disappearances of saved material n untimely power cuts..but alls well that ends well..presentation went fine..even though vss did come back halfway through it (yeah he wasnt supposed to be thr..but much to gas' glee he returned early) n there was a lotttt of crap flung around as usual..n my 20 mins presentation dragged on for the whole hour..n now hopefully those two will decide among themselves how much they wanna give me..
anyway m too sleepy again now..but m in suchhhh a bugging kinda mood..n theres noone to bug..aaahhhhhh!!!..its been a looong time since i actually wanted to bug someone soo much..but no matter..it wud probably not be that much fun with me feeling sooo sleepy like this..whatever..m just gonna go ahead n start dreaming..theres this very specific idea i have right now..would luuuv to dream abt that..so better get a move on before i get all wakey-wakey again..
jaa mata ne!!
ciao.. :)
ps: dandiya night tomm..n only ananya wants to go while the rest of us think that its just too much of a pain to get all dressed up n everything..but i know that even after all our plans of not going, in the end we'll all end up going anyway..like last time also it was a last min plan n we went verry late n ended up taking too many pics as usual with not much dancing thrown in..anyhoo..m going out so m ruled out anyway (too bad would miss the scavenger hunt as well)..but lets see if we all have a night out or i get dragged in after iv come back!!
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
the best feeling in the world!!!
the absolute bestest feeling in the world has gotta be..no classes!!!!..especially on lazy saturdays when one doesnt wanna go out at all..n the bestest of the bestest of the best is thinking there would be a full day of class and finding out that its all cancelled after all!!!!!..gotta love those firms n companies coming for recruitment..wouldnt have had such an amazing saturday if not for their numerous ppts..so no classes..but attendance given on sheets n stuff (proxy of course..the only chance we get here fr stuff like that wich other ppl take for granted)..so thats like yieeeee fr me..no first class so got up late..turned out to be no second class either..moot in 3rd class so sneaked out half-way..2 hr break fr lunch..n classes cancelled again in the aftee..so effectively no classes..n knowing that theres a lazy sunday to look forward to as well..well what can i say..*blisssssss*..watched stuff..read few fanfics..bugged ppl..did sum work (yeah m up to my neck in work n procrastinating dreadfully as usual)..had some yum food..a very my kinda day all in all..hehe..
the second bestest feeling was..probably..watching the india-pakistan final..widescreen..in the darkened mess..all of us together screaming our lungs out..sitting right in front of the huge screen..cheering..cursing..hooting..shouting..jumping..whistling.. stomping..nara-maroing..amazing experience..n then india won..n how!!!..the best type of final..a nail-biting finish..if after all that the pakis had won i dnt think the tv would have survived our assault..hehe..thankfully that wasnt the case..india did win..tho it was just by the skin of their teeth..n we were sooo gleeful that in the end "miserable huq" got out..hehe..n we made such a riot..could be heard fr miles around..n the bombs n crackers later on..god!!..sugggoooiiiiiii!!!!..normally i dnt really like watching matches..too long n gets too boring fr me..much better to have my sis scream n call me during the good parts..but this time was totally different..guess it does make a difference how ones watching it..if it had been jst watching on tv in mess i wouldnt hav gone fr it..but with all the get-up n all..thot id just stay for a while..n got hooked..of course it helped that it was just a 20-20 over match..but watevr..it was amazing..the end..
so..its a really nice time m going thru rt now (not work-wise..coz i hav loads of that..wich m ignoring at present till they actually do bury me)..but otherwise its all really nice..have started getting amazing dreams again which i remember!!..saw sequels to a few of them as well..been meaning to fr quite some time now..it finally cooled down here..drizzled n rained fr sumtime..some brilliant lightning flashes (the whole inter-galactic war types!!)..sandstorms here n there..amazing cloudy skies all the time..n absolutely gorgeous moons at nights.."playing hide n' seek with the clouds"..n a beautiful full moon night right now..light cool breeze blowing through ur hair..heaven!!..this is when after dinner walks are the best..all dark n cool..with just the moon n stars..n us behaving mental as usual..hehe..
speaking of us behaving mental..the other day in class..monday..decided to take pics n stuff.."creations" - our cultural week - going on..so monday was ethnic day n we were all in suits or kurtis n stuff..n decided to remember the occasion..n it was a gorgeous day..all windy n cloudy n cool..naturally not in the mood to study..n ppl were going crazy abt the match in the evening as well..n then the labour law guy decided to take a snap (which was like kinda announced coz he'd been wanting to take it fr ages now n we'd stalled him with sumthg or the other every time..hehe)..of course we didnt wanna write then..n that too in the 3.30 class with just a few hrs remaining for the match!!..so we made some excuse of it being a moot class so no notes with ppl n stuff n finally managed not to have the test (which happened the next day actually..announced snap..but we had flicked the paper n gotten photocopies so no probs..hehe..he did know of it n "changed" the paper..which actually didnt amount to much coz he'd merely changed the names n stuff n kept the substantial parts as it is.."super mann" that he is..total wanna-be bond..hehe)..so after all the crying n cribbing n pleading we were totally not in the mood to study..so decided that a photoshoot session was in order..hehe..took like a tonne of pics..all taken from weird angles so he wudnt notice..was hilarious..sitting in the "functional second bench" (i.e. the actual 3rd bench)..laughing like maniacs..posing this way n that..making jai remove his elbow n dealing with other incidental interferences..n all without him noticing!!..everyone else around us were giving us such looks i think..hehe..but was sooo much fun..kept on taking pics throughout..even till end of next class (not that that took too long..attendance..bit of nakhra..n left..obviously..like we were actually gonna sit n study with the "chu chu chu" guy till 5.30 on the match day!!..duuuhhh!!)..n then it went on for a bit more..pics outside class on the balcony..while walking back to mess..of the sky n clouds..basically just loads of pics..n loads of fun..
well..been writing this blog entry for a loooong time now..had thought of writing abt the no classes thingy on saturday itself but due to certain unavoidable circumstances (viz. me being too lazy..n having too many things to watch..etc etc etc..hehe) was unable to..again thought id write on monday night after the match..but again due to similar circumstances..hehe..finally started last nite..but left halfway through..was too sleepy to think straight..now at last its done..n i wont feel the urge to write this n that n the other in the middle of every boring class!!
till next time then..
jaa ne!!
ps: totally hooked to the "black cat" intro song.."daia no hana"..been listening to it over n over n over again..n wanna watch hyd all over again (ok so that was totally random..bt i doooo so wanna watch it again..)
the second bestest feeling was..probably..watching the india-pakistan final..widescreen..in the darkened mess..all of us together screaming our lungs out..sitting right in front of the huge screen..cheering..cursing..hooting..shouting..jumping..whistling.. stomping..nara-maroing..amazing experience..n then india won..n how!!!..the best type of final..a nail-biting finish..if after all that the pakis had won i dnt think the tv would have survived our assault..hehe..thankfully that wasnt the case..india did win..tho it was just by the skin of their teeth..n we were sooo gleeful that in the end "miserable huq" got out..hehe..n we made such a riot..could be heard fr miles around..n the bombs n crackers later on..god!!..sugggoooiiiiiii!!!!..normally i dnt really like watching matches..too long n gets too boring fr me..much better to have my sis scream n call me during the good parts..but this time was totally different..guess it does make a difference how ones watching it..if it had been jst watching on tv in mess i wouldnt hav gone fr it..but with all the get-up n all..thot id just stay for a while..n got hooked..of course it helped that it was just a 20-20 over match..but watevr..it was amazing..the end..
so..its a really nice time m going thru rt now (not work-wise..coz i hav loads of that..wich m ignoring at present till they actually do bury me)..but otherwise its all really nice..have started getting amazing dreams again which i remember!!..saw sequels to a few of them as well..been meaning to fr quite some time now..it finally cooled down here..drizzled n rained fr sumtime..some brilliant lightning flashes (the whole inter-galactic war types!!)..sandstorms here n there..amazing cloudy skies all the time..n absolutely gorgeous moons at nights.."playing hide n' seek with the clouds"..n a beautiful full moon night right now..light cool breeze blowing through ur hair..heaven!!..this is when after dinner walks are the best..all dark n cool..with just the moon n stars..n us behaving mental as usual..hehe..
speaking of us behaving mental..the other day in class..monday..decided to take pics n stuff.."creations" - our cultural week - going on..so monday was ethnic day n we were all in suits or kurtis n stuff..n decided to remember the occasion..n it was a gorgeous day..all windy n cloudy n cool..naturally not in the mood to study..n ppl were going crazy abt the match in the evening as well..n then the labour law guy decided to take a snap (which was like kinda announced coz he'd been wanting to take it fr ages now n we'd stalled him with sumthg or the other every time..hehe)..of course we didnt wanna write then..n that too in the 3.30 class with just a few hrs remaining for the match!!..so we made some excuse of it being a moot class so no notes with ppl n stuff n finally managed not to have the test (which happened the next day actually..announced snap..but we had flicked the paper n gotten photocopies so no probs..hehe..he did know of it n "changed" the paper..which actually didnt amount to much coz he'd merely changed the names n stuff n kept the substantial parts as it is.."super mann" that he is..total wanna-be bond..hehe)..so after all the crying n cribbing n pleading we were totally not in the mood to study..so decided that a photoshoot session was in order..hehe..took like a tonne of pics..all taken from weird angles so he wudnt notice..was hilarious..sitting in the "functional second bench" (i.e. the actual 3rd bench)..laughing like maniacs..posing this way n that..making jai remove his elbow n dealing with other incidental interferences..n all without him noticing!!..everyone else around us were giving us such looks i think..hehe..but was sooo much fun..kept on taking pics throughout..even till end of next class (not that that took too long..attendance..bit of nakhra..n left..obviously..like we were actually gonna sit n study with the "chu chu chu" guy till 5.30 on the match day!!..duuuhhh!!)..n then it went on for a bit more..pics outside class on the balcony..while walking back to mess..of the sky n clouds..basically just loads of pics..n loads of fun..
well..been writing this blog entry for a loooong time now..had thought of writing abt the no classes thingy on saturday itself but due to certain unavoidable circumstances (viz. me being too lazy..n having too many things to watch..etc etc etc..hehe) was unable to..again thought id write on monday night after the match..but again due to similar circumstances..hehe..finally started last nite..but left halfway through..was too sleepy to think straight..now at last its done..n i wont feel the urge to write this n that n the other in the middle of every boring class!!
till next time then..
jaa ne!!
ps: totally hooked to the "black cat" intro song.."daia no hana"..been listening to it over n over n over again..n wanna watch hyd all over again (ok so that was totally random..bt i doooo so wanna watch it again..)
Saturday, September 22, 2007
the thrill of the chase...n guys i wanna choke the life out of!!
so this was actually written in pkp's ipr class (or at least half of it)..got so bored that decided to write on paper for a change..will be published in the evening of course (now i mean..hehe)..anyway..so m bored as usual..watching "trinity blood" again..properly this time (ie. in jap with subs)..n "black cat" is amazing as usual..brilliant sequences..n train heartnet..aaaaahh..especially as the aloof cold-blooded killer in the earlier eps..hotttttt!!..the whole black overcoat flowing in the wind thing..never fails..always been a sucker for that..hehe..
anyhoo..back to the main topic..actually why i started this entry in the first place..wanted to include it last time actually but couldnt find a suitable opening in all the random drabble..so.."the thrill of the chase"..one of the precursors??..reasons??..(watevr..call it wat u will)..for my boredom..basically building things up a tad bit too much..n hence ending up bored too soon..like the other day in the aftee class..we were soooo hungry..n discussed soo much abt food n how hungry i was (n freaked mads out tellin her to go stand out in the sun so she could get "nice n cooked"..but she wasnt all dat freaked sadly enough..its become normal now..my cannibalistic tendencies becoming more pronounced in class that is..n especially in pkp's classes these days..hehe..even now he's talking abt basmati rice n its x'tics..how it looks..smells like..oooooohhhh godddd..m hungggrryyyy!!!)..anyway so we could actually taste the food..fried maggi..thali..chicken tikka..the works..yummm..sooo much so that we like couldnt wait to go to sdl n hog like crazy..counting the minutes till end of class..n i for one saw everything around me as lumps of yumm food stuff..hehe..so the very second class got over we - mads, ananya n me - practically ran to sdl..even in the reaallly hot (u hav noooo idea how hot believe me!) sun barely surviving ananya's father-in-law's bride burning attempts..n managed to reach sdl in almost semi-solid forms..still really hungry..but couldnt manage to hog as much as i would have liked to..mostly coz it was just soo hot n stuffy..n i just wanted to go back to the room n to my precious cooler..n go online n watch stuff as usual..actually would have preferred to have someone just get me something (ya eternally lazy me..hehe)..but coz id soo overhyped the thing in class that i just had to go..n walk back in the heat as well..mattaku..so basically i probably ended up having more fun fantasizing about it than actually doing it..not quite within the ambit of "thrill of the chase" but somewhat like it..anyway so keeping in mind my tendency to get bored with everything too soon..not too much of a surprise really..n its nt like this happens to me over food only..actually this is probably the first time since food happens to satisfy me pretty well normally..n its more in terms of stuff i watch..expect too much n end up being disappointed..or get soo enamoured by the trailers that the final product doesnt hold much..n then theres the whole thing abt me wanting things i think i cant have n getting bored of it as soon as i do get it (happens more often with studies actually..one time this guy pissed me off n i thot id do better than him n thought maybe that wouldnt b possible coz he was the topper n all..but in the end topped myself n he got miserable results..was quite happy..but didnt feel like repeating it the next time)..call me lazy but i wouldnt like ppl to keep on expecting great things frm me..its a pain to study n top all the time..n once uv done it ppl keep expecting u to continue topping..which is the painful part..coz its more often than not a one-time thing..just a whim on my part..just coz i can top doesnt mean that i like it!!..n then y deprive all those ppl who reaaally wanna top n have been studyin all thru the year for that wich i achieved in a one-night crash course studying the day before the exams??..doesnt seem fair does it??..(actually seems extremely lazy of me..but..watever!!)..anyway so getting bored of things which i chase after n build up too much soon after iv gotten it..thats me!!..which is probably the one major reason i dnt go out with guys i think (n of course theres the thing that none of them match up..well basically r nt yamapi..hehe)..coz i know that after this thrill thing is over, id get dead bored n ditch the guy asap..hehe..n since no guy can actually hold my attention for long (not counting jap ones of course..they'd keep me hooked forever i expect!!..hehe)..so well wat can i say..m apparantly very flighty..hmmm..
ookk..so this entry didnt quite turn out how i first imagined it..too many pauses in b/w i guess..started in class n finishing now..hmmmm..was gonna finish in the evening itself right after class..but ended up editing the project n making the dumb attendance wala assignment..n its not even that farzi..surprizing really!!..the one thing i didnt need to make all nice n stuff, i did..anyhoo so was too mad in the evening anyway to write stuff here..lets just say that certain ppl who shouldnt concern themselves with my business apparantly do..overly..very very overly!!..uffff..pissing off..one tight slap these samples should get..right across their face..disgusting!! poking their nose where it doesnt belong..now ppl reading my blogs i dnt mind..but why cant ppl b normal n just post a comment here if they sooo wanna comment on my posts..why do they hav to send random unwanted msgs i really dont understand!!..if its something that they dnt wanna let the "public" (ya right like the whole world reads my blog oh so religiously like the morning newspaper!!) know..then even i dnt wanna knw..n especially if m not talking to them!!!!..not talkin to ppl does not mean i wanna receive all sorts of random comments instead..y cant ppl just get the msg for gods sake..i mean seriously..wat do i have to do to get it across??..i fail to understand how iv not been clear enough already as it is!!..aarrrggghhh..guys shud all just go jump into sum convenient well or sumthg n die..die die DIEEEE!!!!
ok so now i wanna kill ppl again..n verrry painful deaths at that..n yeah a "torture note" would be great thnx very much..tho a "death note" would suffice just as well..anyway m feeling too sleepy again..n gotta finish these few eps b4 i switch off completely..
well then..
jaa ne!!
anyhoo..back to the main topic..actually why i started this entry in the first place..wanted to include it last time actually but couldnt find a suitable opening in all the random drabble..so.."the thrill of the chase"..one of the precursors??..reasons??..(watevr..call it wat u will)..for my boredom..basically building things up a tad bit too much..n hence ending up bored too soon..like the other day in the aftee class..we were soooo hungry..n discussed soo much abt food n how hungry i was (n freaked mads out tellin her to go stand out in the sun so she could get "nice n cooked"..but she wasnt all dat freaked sadly enough..its become normal now..my cannibalistic tendencies becoming more pronounced in class that is..n especially in pkp's classes these days..hehe..even now he's talking abt basmati rice n its x'tics..how it looks..smells like..oooooohhhh godddd..m hungggrryyyy!!!)..anyway so we could actually taste the food..fried maggi..thali..chicken tikka..the works..yummm..sooo much so that we like couldnt wait to go to sdl n hog like crazy..counting the minutes till end of class..n i for one saw everything around me as lumps of yumm food stuff..hehe..so the very second class got over we - mads, ananya n me - practically ran to sdl..even in the reaallly hot (u hav noooo idea how hot believe me!) sun barely surviving ananya's father-in-law's bride burning attempts..n managed to reach sdl in almost semi-solid forms..still really hungry..but couldnt manage to hog as much as i would have liked to..mostly coz it was just soo hot n stuffy..n i just wanted to go back to the room n to my precious cooler..n go online n watch stuff as usual..actually would have preferred to have someone just get me something (ya eternally lazy me..hehe)..but coz id soo overhyped the thing in class that i just had to go..n walk back in the heat as well..mattaku..so basically i probably ended up having more fun fantasizing about it than actually doing it..not quite within the ambit of "thrill of the chase" but somewhat like it..anyway so keeping in mind my tendency to get bored with everything too soon..not too much of a surprise really..n its nt like this happens to me over food only..actually this is probably the first time since food happens to satisfy me pretty well normally..n its more in terms of stuff i watch..expect too much n end up being disappointed..or get soo enamoured by the trailers that the final product doesnt hold much..n then theres the whole thing abt me wanting things i think i cant have n getting bored of it as soon as i do get it (happens more often with studies actually..one time this guy pissed me off n i thot id do better than him n thought maybe that wouldnt b possible coz he was the topper n all..but in the end topped myself n he got miserable results..was quite happy..but didnt feel like repeating it the next time)..call me lazy but i wouldnt like ppl to keep on expecting great things frm me..its a pain to study n top all the time..n once uv done it ppl keep expecting u to continue topping..which is the painful part..coz its more often than not a one-time thing..just a whim on my part..just coz i can top doesnt mean that i like it!!..n then y deprive all those ppl who reaaally wanna top n have been studyin all thru the year for that wich i achieved in a one-night crash course studying the day before the exams??..doesnt seem fair does it??..(actually seems extremely lazy of me..but..watever!!)..anyway so getting bored of things which i chase after n build up too much soon after iv gotten it..thats me!!..which is probably the one major reason i dnt go out with guys i think (n of course theres the thing that none of them match up..well basically r nt yamapi..hehe)..coz i know that after this thrill thing is over, id get dead bored n ditch the guy asap..hehe..n since no guy can actually hold my attention for long (not counting jap ones of course..they'd keep me hooked forever i expect!!..hehe)..so well wat can i say..m apparantly very flighty..hmmm..
ookk..so this entry didnt quite turn out how i first imagined it..too many pauses in b/w i guess..started in class n finishing now..hmmmm..was gonna finish in the evening itself right after class..but ended up editing the project n making the dumb attendance wala assignment..n its not even that farzi..surprizing really!!..the one thing i didnt need to make all nice n stuff, i did..anyhoo so was too mad in the evening anyway to write stuff here..lets just say that certain ppl who shouldnt concern themselves with my business apparantly do..overly..very very overly!!..uffff..pissing off..one tight slap these samples should get..right across their face..disgusting!! poking their nose where it doesnt belong..now ppl reading my blogs i dnt mind..but why cant ppl b normal n just post a comment here if they sooo wanna comment on my posts..why do they hav to send random unwanted msgs i really dont understand!!..if its something that they dnt wanna let the "public" (ya right like the whole world reads my blog oh so religiously like the morning newspaper!!) know..then even i dnt wanna knw..n especially if m not talking to them!!!!..not talkin to ppl does not mean i wanna receive all sorts of random comments instead..y cant ppl just get the msg for gods sake..i mean seriously..wat do i have to do to get it across??..i fail to understand how iv not been clear enough already as it is!!..aarrrggghhh..guys shud all just go jump into sum convenient well or sumthg n die..die die DIEEEE!!!!
ok so now i wanna kill ppl again..n verrry painful deaths at that..n yeah a "torture note" would be great thnx very much..tho a "death note" would suffice just as well..anyway m feeling too sleepy again..n gotta finish these few eps b4 i switch off completely..
well then..
jaa ne!!
Thursday, September 20, 2007
drabble
i guess this is like the 4th time iv opened this page..n this time i will write something..thing is..its like i have too many random vague ideas running through my head..n at the same time its like my mind is also completely blank..well then lets start off with some really good news first..no first class tomm..so i get to sleep in!!..yiee mee!!..n bad news??..hmmmm..m bored again..but that i guess is just news..good or bad doesnt really come in..n m really blabbering again right??..i am like a drunk baby lately like mads keeps telling me..n wat does this drunk baby wanna talk about now??
guess what exactly is going through my head right now???.."i am sooo bored..mendokuse..this is such a farce..i should soo go to sleep right now"..but the "bored" parts brighter n in huger caps than others..so m gonna be talking abt me being bored again??..story of my life really..wat else is thr to say??..why cant anythg nice n interesting happen??..sometimes i wish i was like haruhi n the world revolved around me n everytime i got bored something would happen!!..but no such luck..m nt in an anime..there are no aliens, espers or time-travellers around me..thing is..i would probably even settle for being like kyon..but..naaaaaaaa..*beeeeep*..life can be "but a dream"..but apparantly not some reaally exciting anime..actually wouldnt have minded had it been one of my own dreams..but apparantly life is this really boring dream dreamt up by this reaaaalllly boring individual who i think basically needs to get a life..so..here i am..this is me..and there are probably a million n one persons id rather be!!..but unfortunately m stuck being bored here..havent even had any of my amazing dreams in quite some time now..n even if i have i dont remm a single bit of it..
not that many stuff to watch lately either..i guess m slowly getting over my rabid mania over watching any other anime i can lay my hands on..dorama phase coming up again maybe??..but then maybe its coz every other good anime iv been following these days is coming to an end..such a pain..y do these gotta end without really ending??..when the manga is ongoing how does it make sense to end everythg midway when nothing has been resolved at all??..pissing off..iv gotta read all these mangas now unless new seasons get announced..mendokuse..mendokuse..mendokuse!!!!!!
anyhoo..hmmm..so..run out of topics again i see..this sucks..m bored bored bored..have nothing to write about n yet m blabbering along..this will probably be the most embarrassing entry ever..which i really should delete but will not coz m just too stubborn..n bored (see??..there is that word again.."bored")..so..wat else is new with me hmm??..been taking these ridiculous quizilla anime quiz things (coz i was bored..of course..hehe)..thought i might put some up here at the end of it..but they were just so utterly ridiculous that i had to chuck that idea outta the window immediately..some of the pics in the results were nice tho..but the quizzes themselves were the dumbest things ever..
anyway since i really dont have anything to blog about (actually never did in the first place..but lets ignore that teeny tiny lil thing for now)..n this has probably crossed all heights of blab..even those set by me..so tatas to u all from a very sleepy drunk baby whos only excuse for making any hapless individual go through the pain of actually sitting n reading this thru is "insanity brought on by extreme boredom" (n theres the sleepiness..n the drunkenness as well..but mostly the boredom thingy..hehe)
soo..till i can live the shame down :P
jaa ne!!
guess what exactly is going through my head right now???.."i am sooo bored..mendokuse..this is such a farce..i should soo go to sleep right now"..but the "bored" parts brighter n in huger caps than others..so m gonna be talking abt me being bored again??..story of my life really..wat else is thr to say??..why cant anythg nice n interesting happen??..sometimes i wish i was like haruhi n the world revolved around me n everytime i got bored something would happen!!..but no such luck..m nt in an anime..there are no aliens, espers or time-travellers around me..thing is..i would probably even settle for being like kyon..but..naaaaaaaa..*beeeeep*..life can be "but a dream"..but apparantly not some reaally exciting anime..actually wouldnt have minded had it been one of my own dreams..but apparantly life is this really boring dream dreamt up by this reaaaalllly boring individual who i think basically needs to get a life..so..here i am..this is me..and there are probably a million n one persons id rather be!!..but unfortunately m stuck being bored here..havent even had any of my amazing dreams in quite some time now..n even if i have i dont remm a single bit of it..
not that many stuff to watch lately either..i guess m slowly getting over my rabid mania over watching any other anime i can lay my hands on..dorama phase coming up again maybe??..but then maybe its coz every other good anime iv been following these days is coming to an end..such a pain..y do these gotta end without really ending??..when the manga is ongoing how does it make sense to end everythg midway when nothing has been resolved at all??..pissing off..iv gotta read all these mangas now unless new seasons get announced..mendokuse..mendokuse..mendokuse!!!!!!
anyhoo..hmmm..so..run out of topics again i see..this sucks..m bored bored bored..have nothing to write about n yet m blabbering along..this will probably be the most embarrassing entry ever..which i really should delete but will not coz m just too stubborn..n bored (see??..there is that word again.."bored")..so..wat else is new with me hmm??..been taking these ridiculous quizilla anime quiz things (coz i was bored..of course..hehe)..thought i might put some up here at the end of it..but they were just so utterly ridiculous that i had to chuck that idea outta the window immediately..some of the pics in the results were nice tho..but the quizzes themselves were the dumbest things ever..
anyway since i really dont have anything to blog about (actually never did in the first place..but lets ignore that teeny tiny lil thing for now)..n this has probably crossed all heights of blab..even those set by me..so tatas to u all from a very sleepy drunk baby whos only excuse for making any hapless individual go through the pain of actually sitting n reading this thru is "insanity brought on by extreme boredom" (n theres the sleepiness..n the drunkenness as well..but mostly the boredom thingy..hehe)
soo..till i can live the shame down :P
jaa ne!!
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
just for a while..
ok so this is my first poem here..n well first poem in years..first "real" poem not counting those rhymes n birthday msgs i used to make up..anyway basically first senti mushy lovey-dovey(?) poem by an adult me which i didnt immediately feel like deleting..made in a hurry by a very sleepy drunk-from-pepsi me (who incidentally is very irritated over a scratchy throat..runny nose..eyes which feel uncomfortably hot..n the beginnings of a pretty high fever!)..inspired from my current gtalk status ("did you know...??") n the hundred n one answers i came up with for all those ppl who bugged me abt it..soo well statutory warning time over..dont expect much n u wont b disappointed..anyway id better stop blabbering n get on with the real task..hai dozo :)
leave a comment if ya liked it..n a lil constructive criticism will not be unwelcome either :)
jaa ne!!
~ Just for a While ~
Oh did you know..
Gazing upon the stars..Still makes me think of you..
Even if just for a while..
Oh did you know..
Listening to our song..Still makes me cry..
Even if just for a while..
Oh did you know..
Looking at you across the room..Still makes my heart clench..
Even if just for a while..
Oh did you know..
Thinking back on our time..Still makes me regret letting you go..
Even if just for a while..
Oh if only you knew..
How many times I still wake up calling your name..
The hollow silence mocking me..
Your face burned in my brain..
Come back..Come back..Screams my empty heart..
Broken into a million pieces..
Too long have we been apart..
I know I loved you then..I know I love you now..
Come back..'Coz I know you loved me too..
Even if just for a while..
Oh did you know..
Gazing upon the stars..Still makes me think of you..
Even if just for a while..
Oh did you know..
Listening to our song..Still makes me cry..
Even if just for a while..
Oh did you know..
Looking at you across the room..Still makes my heart clench..
Even if just for a while..
Oh did you know..
Thinking back on our time..Still makes me regret letting you go..
Even if just for a while..
Oh if only you knew..
How many times I still wake up calling your name..
The hollow silence mocking me..
Your face burned in my brain..
Come back..Come back..Screams my empty heart..
Broken into a million pieces..
Too long have we been apart..
I know I loved you then..I know I love you now..
Come back..'Coz I know you loved me too..
Even if just for a while..
leave a comment if ya liked it..n a lil constructive criticism will not be unwelcome either :)
jaa ne!!
Thursday, September 13, 2007
nani attenda atashi wa..??
really..wat am i doing??..have this huuuuge pil test today..for which i havnt studied..at least not seriously..n that too after i was all sincere n told my mom that i'll sleep in the evening n study all night..ha ha..what a joke!!..but i did keep half of the promise..i did sleep all thru the evening n quite a bit of the night as well..but as for the studying later bit..no show..as soon as i sat in the chair..the comp was like this giant magnet pulling me towards it..n that was the end of all my hi-fi plans..
so all my nice intentions went down the drain..to be replaced by the latest installment of "claymore" (just 2 eps left now to the end..n then il start on the manga in ernest..theres no way they can actually do justice to it in just 26 eps..n that too with an ongoing manga..n apparantly the story line differs considerably)..2nd last ep of "school days" (hope the guy dies a verrrry painful death in the last ep!)..netting for any info on "yuukan club" (bakanishi's new dorama..releasing on 16th oct..finally the long waits over!!..n hes still pretty "drool-worthy" :P)..n watching lots n lots n LOTS of dmvs..which made me wanna watch the series all over again..n dby got me to thinking abt wwl..so basically right now m pining away for the 8th n 10th eps to get subbed so i can watch 9th n 11th..its just sooo hard to resist skipping to the next eps but since soo much happens in an ep cant even do that..
anyway so i uploaded this bunch of dmvs to orkut so i can look at them n drool sum more..chatted some..ate stuff..tried to study (yes i really did)..gave up wen it became painfully obvious that i wasnt retaining anythg anyway..so guess wat i did??..refreshed cr again..still no "bleach"..y cant db be nice n punctual as it is with "naruto" so i can watch it b4 i head for class??..bt no ppl wanna make my day even worse..tempted to watch the raw but thankfully could resist..
actually by now m babbling abt stuff i shudnt b babbling about..i hate writers block (n studying for pil)..so forgive me if this entry seems weird n "gemmy" :P
gotta get ready for class in sumtime now..
jaa ne!!
so all my nice intentions went down the drain..to be replaced by the latest installment of "claymore" (just 2 eps left now to the end..n then il start on the manga in ernest..theres no way they can actually do justice to it in just 26 eps..n that too with an ongoing manga..n apparantly the story line differs considerably)..2nd last ep of "school days" (hope the guy dies a verrrry painful death in the last ep!)..netting for any info on "yuukan club" (bakanishi's new dorama..releasing on 16th oct..finally the long waits over!!..n hes still pretty "drool-worthy" :P)..n watching lots n lots n LOTS of dmvs..which made me wanna watch the series all over again..n dby got me to thinking abt wwl..so basically right now m pining away for the 8th n 10th eps to get subbed so i can watch 9th n 11th..its just sooo hard to resist skipping to the next eps but since soo much happens in an ep cant even do that..
anyway so i uploaded this bunch of dmvs to orkut so i can look at them n drool sum more..chatted some..ate stuff..tried to study (yes i really did)..gave up wen it became painfully obvious that i wasnt retaining anythg anyway..so guess wat i did??..refreshed cr again..still no "bleach"..y cant db be nice n punctual as it is with "naruto" so i can watch it b4 i head for class??..bt no ppl wanna make my day even worse..tempted to watch the raw but thankfully could resist..
actually by now m babbling abt stuff i shudnt b babbling about..i hate writers block (n studying for pil)..so forgive me if this entry seems weird n "gemmy" :P
gotta get ready for class in sumtime now..
jaa ne!!
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
pigeon spank inferno
well just outta a power outage..n did i ever mention how much i luv electricity??..or as mads wud put it technology as a whole..n especially my cooler, the noise of which blots out some really disgusting noises as i realised just now..lets just say i hav a new-found respect for my headphones blaring music at the top of its voice..err.. volume..for otherwise i wud b subjected to listen to the 3rd degree torture that is the orgy currently on in full blast in my balcony..in other words.."pigeon spank inferno" (k dirty minds outta d gutter..i watched "coupling" n not the original!!)..guess i never quite realised how loud they were before..or mayb its just "that time" for them..but theres kinda like a proper full-fledged harem raging outside..n i think the two (disgustingly ugly) chicks are probably scarred for life after seeing their mom n other people looking exactly like their mom do stuff right in front of their innocent eyes..ewwwwww..
anyway the whole time the power was cut..the only thing i was thinking to keep my mind off the you-knw-what-so-dnt-make-me- relive-the-horror-of-it-all-by-writing-abt-it-over-n-over-again was how as soon as the power came back i was gonna blog all abt it (if i didnt go mad frm it b4 that is..)..n also watch these eps of this thing wich was fully streamed n i needed to finish before going for class..which i havnt dun as yet..so me getting back to it now..
jaa ne!!
ps: moms coming tomm..n bringing writer's block as a travelling companion..hehe..so will probably be quite irregular here..
anyway the whole time the power was cut..the only thing i was thinking to keep my mind off the you-knw-what-so-dnt-make-me- relive-the-horror-of-it-all-by-writing-abt-it-over-n-over-again was how as soon as the power came back i was gonna blog all abt it (if i didnt go mad frm it b4 that is..)..n also watch these eps of this thing wich was fully streamed n i needed to finish before going for class..which i havnt dun as yet..so me getting back to it now..
jaa ne!!
ps: moms coming tomm..n bringing writer's block as a travelling companion..hehe..so will probably be quite irregular here..
Monday, September 10, 2007
"the mistress deal"
yup..la la la vid..finally saved..n uploaded (actually..uploading at the moment..but will be dun by the time this gets written..well it kinda has to or else i wnt b able to publish it..hehe)..dunno how it will look here tho..hopefully not too weird..
anyway..guess a lil background info is in order.."the mistress deal" was formed last year (right?)..actually its always been in existence..but formally named as such then..but now we are also called "the lalalazzz" but lets not go into the graphic details of the exact nature of our relationship here..hehe..so this mistress deal is composed of the "awesome threesome" (yeah thats wat we originally went by)..mads, ananya n me..basically the idea was that since thr r three of us..one of us has always gotta b the mistress in the relationship rt??..so we all r mistresses for the others..n the names got inspired frm these corny mbs we read..hehe..actually jst "mistress deal" (frm my collection) n "arabian mistress" (wich mads was reading)..n since we cudnt find anothr suitable name..ananya became "the mistress"..n as for my "dirty mistress"..thats frm "greys anatomy"..combined with ananyas astronaut boyfrnd story (my lips r sealed ananya..m nt gonna embarrass u in a public forum)..hehe..so anyway we have super times togethr..n this vid is jst composed of a few pics taken during sum of our demented times togethr..frm photoshoots at odd occasions to sunset point confessions to blatant lalala behaviour..with some corny lines thrown in here n thr fr gud measure..oh the joys of being lalala!!
so without further ado (well actually i dnt hav anythg else to say wich wont -- lets say -- compromise..err..certain things wich had better remain in confidence fr now..n besides mads is gettin mad at me fr keepin her waiting fr dinner..hehe)..well then..heres the vid..in all its lalala glory..enjoy!!
do drop in a comment or two about how bad it was exactly (especially mads n ananya coz m nt really sure how the description turned out finally)..i knw it probably wnt make much sense to othrs..bt to us who have actually "lived thru it"..its kinda a cute way to relive those crazy times..
so then..toodles for now peepli..
jaa ne!!
anyway..guess a lil background info is in order.."the mistress deal" was formed last year (right?)..actually its always been in existence..but formally named as such then..but now we are also called "the lalalazzz" but lets not go into the graphic details of the exact nature of our relationship here..hehe..so this mistress deal is composed of the "awesome threesome" (yeah thats wat we originally went by)..mads, ananya n me..basically the idea was that since thr r three of us..one of us has always gotta b the mistress in the relationship rt??..so we all r mistresses for the others..n the names got inspired frm these corny mbs we read..hehe..actually jst "mistress deal" (frm my collection) n "arabian mistress" (wich mads was reading)..n since we cudnt find anothr suitable name..ananya became "the mistress"..n as for my "dirty mistress"..thats frm "greys anatomy"..combined with ananyas astronaut boyfrnd story (my lips r sealed ananya..m nt gonna embarrass u in a public forum)..hehe..so anyway we have super times togethr..n this vid is jst composed of a few pics taken during sum of our demented times togethr..frm photoshoots at odd occasions to sunset point confessions to blatant lalala behaviour..with some corny lines thrown in here n thr fr gud measure..oh the joys of being lalala!!
so without further ado (well actually i dnt hav anythg else to say wich wont -- lets say -- compromise..err..certain things wich had better remain in confidence fr now..n besides mads is gettin mad at me fr keepin her waiting fr dinner..hehe)..well then..heres the vid..in all its lalala glory..enjoy!!
do drop in a comment or two about how bad it was exactly (especially mads n ananya coz m nt really sure how the description turned out finally)..i knw it probably wnt make much sense to othrs..bt to us who have actually "lived thru it"..its kinda a cute way to relive those crazy times..
so then..toodles for now peepli..
jaa ne!!
Saturday, September 08, 2007
y do i miss him soo much....
it could be termed as a "crush" at best..certainly nothing more..well maybe if it had been allowed to continue..i probably wud have ended up falling fr him..fr real..n real bad..but thats the whole point..i didnt..cudnt..so y??..y now??..y do i still miss him so much after all these years like it was just yesterday??
guess i'll forever be plagued by thoughts..of him..us..what was..what could have been??..weird na??..never thought id end up obsessing over it after - how long has it been?? - 6 years (wow..its actually been that long??)..probably didnt think too much of it even on the "anniversary" days since..yeah sumtimes lil things did remind me of those days..but i could just laugh it off or something like that..or devote 5 mins or so to reminiscing n then get back on track..which is somehow not working now..cant blv i have nothing othr than memories of us..nothing tangible..no gifts..no cute lil teddy bears..no rings..only..four mails saved in my mailbox..just four..nothing special..just normal "hi..wen r ur vacations next??..cuming to cal sumtime??..u shudnt bunk school so much in b/w"..hehe..feel like laughing n crying every time at the same time wen i read them now..again..n again..n yet again..we had such normal conversations..nice n innocent..coz every other mail with even a hint of anythg else i deleted asap..dunno wat i was afraid of..noone wud have read them anyway..but me being the paranoid freak-show that i am deleted them as soon as i read them (really i think i had read one too many detective books where old letters gave everythg away..hehe)..i should have saved at least one..for old times sake..but not me..always thought there wud b plenty of time to do all that "later" or "wen we grew up"..a vague idea of a future??..n i even went to the extent of deleting them from his sent items wenever i was over at his place..really stupid ne??..even those times..fighting over my paranoia of being discovered..n he was always so calm..but then rarely did anythg rattle him..while i flew off the handle far too much fr my own good..would go all "vesuvius" on him as he put it..n hed calmly keep smiling at me till i was too exhausted to continue..god!! that was irritating as hell..wanted to rip that smile off (well if the same situation arose now..id probably..umm..kiss it off??..hehe..there i go..being mushy again..hehe)..i remm like only a couple of times that we really argued abt sumthg..two-sided arguments i mean..n both times it was coz i had overreacted over sumthg quite trivial n gotten him too mad..but man was he scary wen angry..hehe..n cho cute too!!..one time i actually laughed out loud in b/w he was being sooo cute..hehe..
god the memories..now that im seriously thinking about it all..theres just too many to write here..dunno wich to write n wich not to..in all the time we were together we did so many things..he was the one who got me hooked to comps..before that id merely dismissed them as these "tv look-alikes" in my dads office..useless basically..hehe..it was principally to mail him that i ventured into cyberspace n discovered the joys of internet..n it was also him who introduced me to comp games.."road rash"..will always remm the first time i came first in the race..hehe..danced around like mad..that was the first time he hugged me (more like glomped me!)..probably just to calm me down from all the random jumping around his room..but id like to think otherwise..hehe..i was so shocked i went like "statue" (yeah we used to play that a lot those days..hehe) n he started laughing..n it was so weird coz i cud actually "feel" him laughing..hehe..n even tho i like to maintain that im incapable of blushing i think that that was the one exception wen i went tomato-red from the neck up..n he had such an amused expression on his face..he teased me mercilessly for days on end after that..jerk!!..but now id give anythg to have him tease me like that..just one more time..its weird..out of all the guys iv known..many reminded me of him..in certain terms..but none could replace that mischevious smirk he had forever plastered on his face while teasing me..n god wat a memory he had!!..inhuman..remembered every single teeny tiny lil thing i goofed up in..things even id have forgotten..its like he had a "tease bank" where hed stock up on all this just so he cud make fun of me by recounting them to me wen i would least expect it..it was like his favourite past-time was to try n make my life one living hell..n i loved every freaking minute of it..hehe..
now that i think abt it..i never did get to know wat he ever saw in me..hehe..in all those times we had our "heart-to-hearts" i never once cud find the courage to ask y he chose me..thinking back now dunno y i hesitated..the answer couldnt probably have been as frightening as i was making it out to be..n now that'll forever be one of those lil things il regret..which cant be undone..not now..not ever..oh how i wish he wasnt coming that day..or at least was taking the train like his dad wanted him to..i wish he didnt knw how to drive..i wish his driver wasnt dumb enough to leave him n run off to "scout out" the cause of the jam..i wish he wasnt the oversmart jerk he was who thought he could do anythg he wanted..i wish he wasnt dumb enough not to knw that truck drivers *will* cut u off every chance they get..i wish he would have said something before..i wish everything didnt have to end just in one foolish moment of misjudgement..leaving so much unsaid..but most of all..i wish he really meant it wen he said "see ya this evening"..i wish he had kept that promise..
i knw now that it was just a crush..a passing fancy..n it didnt really take me "forever" to get over him like id thought..but if tht evening he had come..if he'd kept that promise..i think it would have turned out differently..i would probably have been studyin in iit if he got in..or sumwhere in cal..with him..yeah..with him..i might have actually become a "nice girl" (yeah even tho now the very idea gives me the creeps!!)..so iv changed frm back then??..or maybe m still the same bt would have changed had he stayed..well wat can i say..guess he took a bit of me with him wen he left..n left a bit of him inside me.. :)
okee regarding the above..wat shall i call it??..ficlet??..short story??..random crack??..basically a very haphazard account of god only knows what..bit n pieces of this n that joined together making a huge mess..hmmmm..dunno y i even wrote all that up..now..actually had gone off to bed..half n hour of tossing n turning n thinking too much got me up again..guess just had to pen it down or my mind wudnt give it a rest..dunno y tho..maybe an overdose of "bokura ga ita"??..shudnt be tho..totally different..tho it is kinda cute..but probably anythg would be "cute" after the torture that was "school days"..even thinking about it makes me shudder!!
anyway now that its all out..
toodles!!
ps: would give an arm n a leg to have him online now..but guess thats gonna be kinda "difficult" right?? :(
guess i'll forever be plagued by thoughts..of him..us..what was..what could have been??..weird na??..never thought id end up obsessing over it after - how long has it been?? - 6 years (wow..its actually been that long??)..probably didnt think too much of it even on the "anniversary" days since..yeah sumtimes lil things did remind me of those days..but i could just laugh it off or something like that..or devote 5 mins or so to reminiscing n then get back on track..which is somehow not working now..cant blv i have nothing othr than memories of us..nothing tangible..no gifts..no cute lil teddy bears..no rings..only..four mails saved in my mailbox..just four..nothing special..just normal "hi..wen r ur vacations next??..cuming to cal sumtime??..u shudnt bunk school so much in b/w"..hehe..feel like laughing n crying every time at the same time wen i read them now..again..n again..n yet again..we had such normal conversations..nice n innocent..coz every other mail with even a hint of anythg else i deleted asap..dunno wat i was afraid of..noone wud have read them anyway..but me being the paranoid freak-show that i am deleted them as soon as i read them (really i think i had read one too many detective books where old letters gave everythg away..hehe)..i should have saved at least one..for old times sake..but not me..always thought there wud b plenty of time to do all that "later" or "wen we grew up"..a vague idea of a future??..n i even went to the extent of deleting them from his sent items wenever i was over at his place..really stupid ne??..even those times..fighting over my paranoia of being discovered..n he was always so calm..but then rarely did anythg rattle him..while i flew off the handle far too much fr my own good..would go all "vesuvius" on him as he put it..n hed calmly keep smiling at me till i was too exhausted to continue..god!! that was irritating as hell..wanted to rip that smile off (well if the same situation arose now..id probably..umm..kiss it off??..hehe..there i go..being mushy again..hehe)..i remm like only a couple of times that we really argued abt sumthg..two-sided arguments i mean..n both times it was coz i had overreacted over sumthg quite trivial n gotten him too mad..but man was he scary wen angry..hehe..n cho cute too!!..one time i actually laughed out loud in b/w he was being sooo cute..hehe..
god the memories..now that im seriously thinking about it all..theres just too many to write here..dunno wich to write n wich not to..in all the time we were together we did so many things..he was the one who got me hooked to comps..before that id merely dismissed them as these "tv look-alikes" in my dads office..useless basically..hehe..it was principally to mail him that i ventured into cyberspace n discovered the joys of internet..n it was also him who introduced me to comp games.."road rash"..will always remm the first time i came first in the race..hehe..danced around like mad..that was the first time he hugged me (more like glomped me!)..probably just to calm me down from all the random jumping around his room..but id like to think otherwise..hehe..i was so shocked i went like "statue" (yeah we used to play that a lot those days..hehe) n he started laughing..n it was so weird coz i cud actually "feel" him laughing..hehe..n even tho i like to maintain that im incapable of blushing i think that that was the one exception wen i went tomato-red from the neck up..n he had such an amused expression on his face..he teased me mercilessly for days on end after that..jerk!!..but now id give anythg to have him tease me like that..just one more time..its weird..out of all the guys iv known..many reminded me of him..in certain terms..but none could replace that mischevious smirk he had forever plastered on his face while teasing me..n god wat a memory he had!!..inhuman..remembered every single teeny tiny lil thing i goofed up in..things even id have forgotten..its like he had a "tease bank" where hed stock up on all this just so he cud make fun of me by recounting them to me wen i would least expect it..it was like his favourite past-time was to try n make my life one living hell..n i loved every freaking minute of it..hehe..
now that i think abt it..i never did get to know wat he ever saw in me..hehe..in all those times we had our "heart-to-hearts" i never once cud find the courage to ask y he chose me..thinking back now dunno y i hesitated..the answer couldnt probably have been as frightening as i was making it out to be..n now that'll forever be one of those lil things il regret..which cant be undone..not now..not ever..oh how i wish he wasnt coming that day..or at least was taking the train like his dad wanted him to..i wish he didnt knw how to drive..i wish his driver wasnt dumb enough to leave him n run off to "scout out" the cause of the jam..i wish he wasnt the oversmart jerk he was who thought he could do anythg he wanted..i wish he wasnt dumb enough not to knw that truck drivers *will* cut u off every chance they get..i wish he would have said something before..i wish everything didnt have to end just in one foolish moment of misjudgement..leaving so much unsaid..but most of all..i wish he really meant it wen he said "see ya this evening"..i wish he had kept that promise..
i knw now that it was just a crush..a passing fancy..n it didnt really take me "forever" to get over him like id thought..but if tht evening he had come..if he'd kept that promise..i think it would have turned out differently..i would probably have been studyin in iit if he got in..or sumwhere in cal..with him..yeah..with him..i might have actually become a "nice girl" (yeah even tho now the very idea gives me the creeps!!)..so iv changed frm back then??..or maybe m still the same bt would have changed had he stayed..well wat can i say..guess he took a bit of me with him wen he left..n left a bit of him inside me.. :)
okee regarding the above..wat shall i call it??..ficlet??..short story??..random crack??..basically a very haphazard account of god only knows what..bit n pieces of this n that joined together making a huge mess..hmmmm..dunno y i even wrote all that up..now..actually had gone off to bed..half n hour of tossing n turning n thinking too much got me up again..guess just had to pen it down or my mind wudnt give it a rest..dunno y tho..maybe an overdose of "bokura ga ita"??..shudnt be tho..totally different..tho it is kinda cute..but probably anythg would be "cute" after the torture that was "school days"..even thinking about it makes me shudder!!
anyway now that its all out..
toodles!!
ps: would give an arm n a leg to have him online now..but guess thats gonna be kinda "difficult" right?? :(
Friday, September 07, 2007
a lil poem...
just this lil poem..obviously not by me (ha ha..as if!!)..was a dedication to these two x'ters in this "naruto" fanfic i was reading..it'll probably not make too much sense putting it up here just like that..but it goes really well with the fic..the authoress has actually done a superb job at it..really captured sasuke's x'ter perfectly..really hate it when they make him go all OOC n lovey-dovey n stuff..well so..here it is..(n yeah this is from the pov of the girl..n "sasuke-teme's" the one with the "harsh n cruel comments"..oh but of course..hehe..so on ya go!!)
so..wasn't that quite cute??..just thought id put it up..evn tho its totally random n all..but was kinda too long for a status (ya think!!)..so this was it..
oh n finally changed the songs on this thing..was starting to bug me..been there fr god knows how long..so last night i finally logged into zorpia n hunted down sum jap songs n put 'em up..but man was it troublesome!!..all jap songs were written in japanese..kanji i mean..n wudnt cum up in english searches..mendokuse!!..but alls well that ends well..tho these arent like my absolute favs..but it does have two songs by my darling "pi-tan"..hehe..everytime i listen to them i feel like watching "nobuta" n "kurosagi" again..cant wait for the kurosagi movie now..more yamapi..yiee!!..n "hana yori dango" movie's announced as well..now if only they'd make a "gokusen 3" or a movie or something with shin i cud die happy..hehe..missed "shinkumi" soo much in "gokusen 2" even with my bakanishi as eye-candy..n speaking of akanishi..y on earth has he gone underground even now that hes officially back n all??..i wanna see him in something tooooo!!!
k now lalala vid update..not saved yet..damn movie maker freezes every time..hopefully by next post will b up..if of course permi gets granted by mads n ananya to broadcast it to the world that is..hehe..
so till then..
jaa ne!!
ps: m gonna KILL these ppl who r "moderating" internet here..they actually had the nerve to block veoh too??..as if getting youtube wasnt enough!!..n no songs or movies can be downloaded either..n even a download limit!!..seriously this is going too far..how exactly r we supposed to survive wen ur killing the net like this???? (ok better make that how m "i" gonna survive wen my "lifeforce" is being sucked out of me!!!!!)..cant believe i have to resort to using proxy sites n all to watch stuff now (n of course they've blocked kproxy as well!!)..thankfully they have no idea about the hundred n one other sites i get my stuff from or id reallllly be dead..hehe..
Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Argue with me
Is all that you'd do.
I hate you, you hate me
Is all that we'd say,
Every hour and minute
Of every day.
I despised you, I loathed you
With all of my heart.
Your harsh and cruel comments
Tore me apart.
Then one night I found
A note on the floor -
Missing clothes, missing shoes,
A wide-open door.
I dashed through the town
To stop this cruel fate.
But when I arrived,
You were gone; I, too late.
I collapsed on the ground
As it started to rain.
I wondered if I'd ever
Overcome this pain.
Roses will die,
Violets too.
You left before I could say
That I love you...
Violets are blue.
Argue with me
Is all that you'd do.
I hate you, you hate me
Is all that we'd say,
Every hour and minute
Of every day.
I despised you, I loathed you
With all of my heart.
Your harsh and cruel comments
Tore me apart.
Then one night I found
A note on the floor -
Missing clothes, missing shoes,
A wide-open door.
I dashed through the town
To stop this cruel fate.
But when I arrived,
You were gone; I, too late.
I collapsed on the ground
As it started to rain.
I wondered if I'd ever
Overcome this pain.
Roses will die,
Violets too.
You left before I could say
That I love you...
so..wasn't that quite cute??..just thought id put it up..evn tho its totally random n all..but was kinda too long for a status (ya think!!)..so this was it..
oh n finally changed the songs on this thing..was starting to bug me..been there fr god knows how long..so last night i finally logged into zorpia n hunted down sum jap songs n put 'em up..but man was it troublesome!!..all jap songs were written in japanese..kanji i mean..n wudnt cum up in english searches..mendokuse!!..but alls well that ends well..tho these arent like my absolute favs..but it does have two songs by my darling "pi-tan"..hehe..everytime i listen to them i feel like watching "nobuta" n "kurosagi" again..cant wait for the kurosagi movie now..more yamapi..yiee!!..n "hana yori dango" movie's announced as well..now if only they'd make a "gokusen 3" or a movie or something with shin i cud die happy..hehe..missed "shinkumi" soo much in "gokusen 2" even with my bakanishi as eye-candy..n speaking of akanishi..y on earth has he gone underground even now that hes officially back n all??..i wanna see him in something tooooo!!!
k now lalala vid update..not saved yet..damn movie maker freezes every time..hopefully by next post will b up..if of course permi gets granted by mads n ananya to broadcast it to the world that is..hehe..
so till then..
jaa ne!!
ps: m gonna KILL these ppl who r "moderating" internet here..they actually had the nerve to block veoh too??..as if getting youtube wasnt enough!!..n no songs or movies can be downloaded either..n even a download limit!!..seriously this is going too far..how exactly r we supposed to survive wen ur killing the net like this???? (ok better make that how m "i" gonna survive wen my "lifeforce" is being sucked out of me!!!!!)..cant believe i have to resort to using proxy sites n all to watch stuff now (n of course they've blocked kproxy as well!!)..thankfully they have no idea about the hundred n one other sites i get my stuff from or id reallllly be dead..hehe..
Thursday, September 06, 2007
this, that, dreams n la la la vidz..
exactly like the title says..this n that being my usual spree of anime, random jap stuff n drooling over a chibi yamapi..whos unbelievably cuteeee (had to pause the eps every few secs just to look at him n go "awwwww"..hehe..n he was born an amazing actor apparantly!!..n it also had my bakanishi!!!..chibi cuteness personified..hehe..if i was in an anime/dorama id probably be unconscious due to massive nosebleeds by now :D..before i get carried away into which is probably my ten-thousandth daydream of me n yamapi (..sitting in a tree..k-i-s-s-i-n-g)..ok sorry now that was totally random..hehe..just remembered from this one fanfic i was reading the other day..which would also fall under my "this n that" category..or my "things which induce massive nosebleeds" category as well..hehe..really some of them r just sooo good u freaking forget they arent canon!!!..or u freaking forget wat was canon in the first place..hehe..anyhoo..back to this n that..been spending waaayy too much time doin random netting n pic hunting..n reading doujins..n god r they addicting!! (*nosebleed alert*)..n so are anime/dorama osts..n when both go together..well suffice to say iv been seen floating around a good few feet above ground..n have it on good authority that i sing "weird songs in some apparantly made-up language (aka jap!)" in the shower..n mads n ananya have to bear me spouting random jap stuff to them like all the time..or deal with a very dreamy me with a million watt smile ranting on about how my name in jap is "yamashita emi" (how did that come about i still dnt get btw!!..but who m i to complain wen the results r.....well u get the picture :P)..which apparantly solemnifies my destiny to b married to my dear darling yamapi..or "pi-tan" as i now very affectionately call him..hehe..
well..in other news..got drunk again last saturday..looks like m turning into quite the alcoholic..hehe..but as usual..no effect..but at least better than last time..n waaaay better than wait-wat-was-her-name-again's real orange juice masquerading as screwdriver..hehe..n next time (yes we both are already planning for a "next time") its gonna be that red stuff namita was having..one sip of which was enough for all of us to get that "warm inside" feeling..hehe..so hopefully later on this month or next month or hopefully in the very near future my finally-drunk antics will be chronicled here..hopefully wen i do get drunk i will have someone online to bug or freak out..hehe..no fun otherwise right??..wats the use of getting drunk if noones there to take advantage of it..n m sure that theres at least one guy who would be only too happy to exploit my defences-down-self to extract "valuable information" (watevr that may b..since theres not much that i knw that he wud wanna knw anyway..now if it were the other way round that wud b a totally different matter..but then id probably be the last person he'd talk to wen drunk purely coz of these very reasons..fufufu..if he ever did get drunk that is..which dusnt seem to be a valid option..bt it would be "profitable" if it did happen..hehe)..but then he would probably not try anythg coz he'll be too suspicious that its all an act to make a fool outta him..cant blame him for being cautious now can i..especially after certain..lets just call them "incidents" (if ur reading this subho u knw wat m talkin about..n if ur not subho..well u have no idea wat m talkin abt n i wud rather keep it that way..so there!!)..anyway both the times that i got "drunk" there wasnt anyone to "share" it with..hehe..not like it mattered coz i wasnt really drunk..but it would hav been fun to pretend fr sometime at least..but nopes ppl just seem to disappear any time i actually wanna blab (n no..appearing at 5.30 in the morning dusnt help!!)..but they will sit n bug n bore me to death at every other time..especially wen m at a particularly impt point in one of my animes..seriously..wud i rather see an allen v/s rhode fight or kazuma n ayano not-flirting or chat with random ppl who apparantly think "hi..wassup" chats r the most interesting things on the planet!!..i mean really..if ur online n i havnt messaged u..it doesnt mean im waiting fr u to do the honours..rather that m nt in the mood to blab..or that im too busy to even notice ur online..both of wich boils down to the fact that I DON'T WANNA CHAT WITH U!!..do i really have to have my status as "dnd" to hav a lil peace n quiet??..umm..ok mayb that came out a lil harsher than expected..but then m really pissed at ppl like that..almost as pissed as i am with random "plis franship with me" ppl..not as much as pigeons of course..or gems..hehe..(n no this "no chat" policy of mine does not extend to the few ppl in my life who i wud very much like to spend the rest of my life chatting with if the opportunity shud so arise..so no ananya u dnt need to come crying into my room wen u read this..ur in wat iv termed "the safe zone"..hehe..as for the others in the zone..i trust u knw who u r..or u cud come crying to my room for clarifications :P)
hmmm..so..moving on..updated my profile n lists on these two anime news(?) sites..actually browsed thru ets list n that set me off..(drat that guy fr giving me the list..that too on a sunday morning..made me waste too much time..everyone knws how i get wen i get my hands on a random anime browsing site!!..bt thankfully that got my mind off my damn "boyfriend"..wich i now remember again..dat darn et!!..pisses me off even wen hes not there)..anyway so i updated my lists too..cudnt blv the number of animes id watchd since waaaay back wen i had made the profiles..hehe..but its such a pain to add them all..thank god i cud export the list to the 2nd site..would have died if id actually had to do it over again..but basically i revisited all my old anime favs..watched a few old eps as well..felt soo nostalgic to watch "love hina"..had completely forgotten about good ol' "naru punch"..hehe..n "inuyasha" n "ouran" n all the others..oooohh n it felt soo nice afterwards..
okee now that i scroll up its actually become a reaallllyyyy long entry..n m still stuck on the "this n that" part n havnt even touched on the "dreams n lalala vids" yet..well to get on with it then..dreams..been having these totally realistic dreams lately..yes even more realistic than usual..n thats saying sumthg since most of the times m nt sure wethr wat i recall r real memories or frm sum dream i had sum nite..but these few dreams stand out..n i mean really stand out..n i guess this is wat actually prompted me to click on the lil "new blog" thingy in the first place..before i got sidetracked by my this's n thats..but then iv always been known to deviate..frm anythg..like id start with luking up a new anime title..n end up finishing this completely different anime..n dnt even get me started on deviations during conversations..see??..m doin it again..hehe..so now where was i??..hmm..yess..my dreams..woke up this evening with yet another amazing one..its weird how the best dreams iv had have always been wen i overslept..well rather not deviate onto a discussion on my wacky sleeping patterns now..so again it was a mix of here n kgp n previous "dream worlds"..annual day cum children's nite (again!)..dads office (2nd appearence)..rain (but of course)..the eden gardens circle in cal with wat looked like whitehall in it (m sure that will feature again in one of my other dreams later)..subho (shes a regular guest star now..hehe)..aro (probably a first..not counting the "everyone in class" dreams)..random faceless strangers (i probably knew who they were while in the dream bt right now hav no idea in hell)..something about alibis n sum plan..n a huge snake of anaconda proportions (n that was just totally random..dunno y i was even thinking that!)..well right now writing abt the dream it seems really idiotic..but blv me wen i say it was a gud one wen i was "in" it..thats all fr todays one..but the one i really wanted to write abt lest i forget abt it happened quite a few days back..sumtime last week i guess..one of those times wen i went to sleep in the evening after pulling an all-nighter the day b4..one of those just-crashed-into-bed-dead-to-the-world times..n wow wat a dream i had..better than even my well thought out ones..memory really fuzzy now tho..my grandmoms place (not the first time)..1st floor (now that almost *never* happens)..set in one of my dream worlds..probably part of world of my "picnic trip" dream..same green meadows around the house..slightly hilly..this time with some flowers sumver..but thats nt even close to the gud part..i kinda remm the first half of it being mayb a lil exciting or sumthg..like my usual ones..but wat i really remm really clearly starts frm wen i was in the house..upstairs..doing sum stuff on a table..papers..cards..something..n its getting dark outside..n guess who walks in???..et!!!..random or wat??..n he can apparantly teleport himself..yeah dunno y i knw that or y i even dreamt that..bt probably got sumthg to do with that almost blank first half of the dream..(for ppl who r unaware of my dreaming patterns..i get loads of these weird sci-fi dreams..or just downright crazy dreams where i have "powers"..n yeah m aware that freud wud have had a field day with me..hehe)..anyway so et lands up..with wat can only be termed as a sleeping bag..all nicely folded n in its cover of course..or it mite have been jst a small side-pillow (id rather keep thinkin of it as a sleeping bag..coz i really dnt think id b dreaming of et with pillows..not that m partial to him with sleeping bags either..but then..waaahhhh..just lemme get on with the dream!!)..but thats not really very important..wat was hilarious really was wat he did..apparantly he had been looking fr me all over (actually "everyone" was..since id disappeared after some "incident"..oh how i wish the first half was clearer)..so naturally i got all busy tidying up the table so we cud leave..but lo n behold!..wat does he do??..switch on the tv n put a movie in!!! (yeah now et n movies do go better than pillows rt??..hehe)..so apparantly he now wants to watch the movie..hehe..n it seems that i hav to comply!! (which m probably quite happy to anyway..cmon..papers on a table v/s movie..wich do u think wud win??)..so theres this divan there in front of the tv n m sitting on the floor with my back against it (yeah that used to be my fav pose wen we watched tv upstairs anyway)..so i have to look up slightly to see the screen..n where's et u might ask??..plonked on the table right in front of me..n he now apparantly wants to talk!!..well anyone who knws me evn a lil knows how i get wen sumone blocks my view..n i really dnt need much of a reason to b mad at him anyway rt??..suffice to say that i was emanating some decidedly murderous aura (picture it anime style!!)..n the next thing i knew i was plucked up n put on the divan so i cud watch properly again..wat happened later..well im again a bit fuzzy about it..i still distinctly remm feeling extremely confused with my mind on an eternal "eeeehhhhhhh????"..but i think i watched the movie..(actually y i dreamt up this whole sequence i hav no idea..coz it dusnt really seem to fit into the main dream..but wen i woke up the next day n recalled it i remm i laughed aloud fr 5 full minutes..tho now i have no idea y..dusnt seem all that funny in hindsite..just plain weird n very unnecessary actually)..next clear memory is of me fleeing the house for sum reason (again refer to the blank first half) n getting pulled into someones backyard thru a fence (u knw where one of the panels revolves sumhow n u can get in that way??)..n who do u think pulled me in n most likely saved me from watevr i was running frm??..n this was the best part of the whole dream..guess guess..nothing??..hehe..well il kill all the suspence then..yagami raito himself!!..yep..in all his kira-ness glory..hehe..n since its all AU, hes nt dead (yeah like duuhh!!..its *my* dream..like he'd die there), theres no annoying misa-misa n no freaky perpetually-on-a-sugar-high alphabet-ppl..well come to think of it..theres no ryuk either..or a death note..so probably no kira either..but never mind all that..its enough that raito's there n hes mine..actually m nt quite sure of that last bit coz mads had to find jst that moment to call me fr dinner, waking me up from raito-n-me-drowning-in-each-other's-eyes-goodness (ok mayb thats an overenthu exaggerated mushy fluff..but it cud happen..sumtime..hehe)..basically with that my dream flew away like a feather frm my hands (yes i jst watchd a ff8 amv..n squalls too hot fr his own gud!!)..i did manage to get back to bed within a few minutes but that moment was lost forever..no matter how hard i concentrated..how much i thought n thought n thought abt it..i just couldnt continue the dream..the rest of the night dreamt loads of mini dreams..even one about death note..n again upstairs in my grandmoms place..i was soo sure that i would be able to pick up where i left off..but nopes..turns out i just watched the whole l n raito getting soaked in rain part (the one jst b4 l's death)..but set in the terrace n the balcony of this place..even saw the whole drying off n foot massage part (now that jst screams yaoi!!)..disappointing to say the least..anyway by the time i realised that i was not gonna b able to go back to that dream n finally woke up it was aftee of the next day..n id slept for nearly 20 hours!!..needless to say woke up feeling all hung over (n guilty..fr missing classes..again..hehe)..but wat can i say..once m in one of my dreams reality takes a step backward..n i just plain luv my dreams far too much to come of out it soon..its like watching a movie while sleeping..n most of the times i watch dreams in "episodes" or get "sequels" to particularly gud dreams (fingers crossed fr this one!!)..which makes it seem even more like sum movie..n basically all of them make me feel really nice in the mornings (or wenever i get up actually..hehe) n kinda sad that m awake again..anyway id probably luv to keep on dreaming forever..like i think if i ever went into a coma n started dreaming..id probably never wanna cum back again..is that too demented or morbid??
anyhoo..iv really gotta end this now..probably the world's longest blog..ever..certainly bests all of my previous efforts..n its not even taken me that long..its just been one huge writing spree..hehe..anyway..so this is it..a dreamy (eternally!) highly anaemic (thanks to all my recent nosebleeds) completely crazy (now thats stale news by now i guess) blogger (now that actually sounds tame compared to wat came b4..but wat can i say..m too lazy n muddled to think up something clever..no wait! i did.."la la la"..hmmm..nopes..still too tame..*sigh*) signing off now to get back to her dreams..
jaa ne!!
ps: totally forgot about the la la la vid part..guess thats saved for next time then..this is just waay too long fr me to squeeze that in as well..n theres an "add video" option to blogs too (just noticed!)..so il probably attach the vid itself next time round..once i actually manage to save it that is!! :)
well..in other news..got drunk again last saturday..looks like m turning into quite the alcoholic..hehe..but as usual..no effect..but at least better than last time..n waaaay better than wait-wat-was-her-name-again's real orange juice masquerading as screwdriver..hehe..n next time (yes we both are already planning for a "next time") its gonna be that red stuff namita was having..one sip of which was enough for all of us to get that "warm inside" feeling..hehe..so hopefully later on this month or next month or hopefully in the very near future my finally-drunk antics will be chronicled here..hopefully wen i do get drunk i will have someone online to bug or freak out..hehe..no fun otherwise right??..wats the use of getting drunk if noones there to take advantage of it..n m sure that theres at least one guy who would be only too happy to exploit my defences-down-self to extract "valuable information" (watevr that may b..since theres not much that i knw that he wud wanna knw anyway..now if it were the other way round that wud b a totally different matter..but then id probably be the last person he'd talk to wen drunk purely coz of these very reasons..fufufu..if he ever did get drunk that is..which dusnt seem to be a valid option..bt it would be "profitable" if it did happen..hehe)..but then he would probably not try anythg coz he'll be too suspicious that its all an act to make a fool outta him..cant blame him for being cautious now can i..especially after certain..lets just call them "incidents" (if ur reading this subho u knw wat m talkin about..n if ur not subho..well u have no idea wat m talkin abt n i wud rather keep it that way..so there!!)..anyway both the times that i got "drunk" there wasnt anyone to "share" it with..hehe..not like it mattered coz i wasnt really drunk..but it would hav been fun to pretend fr sometime at least..but nopes ppl just seem to disappear any time i actually wanna blab (n no..appearing at 5.30 in the morning dusnt help!!)..but they will sit n bug n bore me to death at every other time..especially wen m at a particularly impt point in one of my animes..seriously..wud i rather see an allen v/s rhode fight or kazuma n ayano not-flirting or chat with random ppl who apparantly think "hi..wassup" chats r the most interesting things on the planet!!..i mean really..if ur online n i havnt messaged u..it doesnt mean im waiting fr u to do the honours..rather that m nt in the mood to blab..or that im too busy to even notice ur online..both of wich boils down to the fact that I DON'T WANNA CHAT WITH U!!..do i really have to have my status as "dnd" to hav a lil peace n quiet??..umm..ok mayb that came out a lil harsher than expected..but then m really pissed at ppl like that..almost as pissed as i am with random "plis franship with me" ppl..not as much as pigeons of course..or gems..hehe..(n no this "no chat" policy of mine does not extend to the few ppl in my life who i wud very much like to spend the rest of my life chatting with if the opportunity shud so arise..so no ananya u dnt need to come crying into my room wen u read this..ur in wat iv termed "the safe zone"..hehe..as for the others in the zone..i trust u knw who u r..or u cud come crying to my room for clarifications :P)
hmmm..so..moving on..updated my profile n lists on these two anime news(?) sites..actually browsed thru ets list n that set me off..(drat that guy fr giving me the list..that too on a sunday morning..made me waste too much time..everyone knws how i get wen i get my hands on a random anime browsing site!!..bt thankfully that got my mind off my damn "boyfriend"..wich i now remember again..dat darn et!!..pisses me off even wen hes not there)..anyway so i updated my lists too..cudnt blv the number of animes id watchd since waaaay back wen i had made the profiles..hehe..but its such a pain to add them all..thank god i cud export the list to the 2nd site..would have died if id actually had to do it over again..but basically i revisited all my old anime favs..watched a few old eps as well..felt soo nostalgic to watch "love hina"..had completely forgotten about good ol' "naru punch"..hehe..n "inuyasha" n "ouran" n all the others..oooohh n it felt soo nice afterwards..
okee now that i scroll up its actually become a reaallllyyyy long entry..n m still stuck on the "this n that" part n havnt even touched on the "dreams n lalala vids" yet..well to get on with it then..dreams..been having these totally realistic dreams lately..yes even more realistic than usual..n thats saying sumthg since most of the times m nt sure wethr wat i recall r real memories or frm sum dream i had sum nite..but these few dreams stand out..n i mean really stand out..n i guess this is wat actually prompted me to click on the lil "new blog" thingy in the first place..before i got sidetracked by my this's n thats..but then iv always been known to deviate..frm anythg..like id start with luking up a new anime title..n end up finishing this completely different anime..n dnt even get me started on deviations during conversations..see??..m doin it again..hehe..so now where was i??..hmm..yess..my dreams..woke up this evening with yet another amazing one..its weird how the best dreams iv had have always been wen i overslept..well rather not deviate onto a discussion on my wacky sleeping patterns now..so again it was a mix of here n kgp n previous "dream worlds"..annual day cum children's nite (again!)..dads office (2nd appearence)..rain (but of course)..the eden gardens circle in cal with wat looked like whitehall in it (m sure that will feature again in one of my other dreams later)..subho (shes a regular guest star now..hehe)..aro (probably a first..not counting the "everyone in class" dreams)..random faceless strangers (i probably knew who they were while in the dream bt right now hav no idea in hell)..something about alibis n sum plan..n a huge snake of anaconda proportions (n that was just totally random..dunno y i was even thinking that!)..well right now writing abt the dream it seems really idiotic..but blv me wen i say it was a gud one wen i was "in" it..thats all fr todays one..but the one i really wanted to write abt lest i forget abt it happened quite a few days back..sumtime last week i guess..one of those times wen i went to sleep in the evening after pulling an all-nighter the day b4..one of those just-crashed-into-bed-dead-to-the-world times..n wow wat a dream i had..better than even my well thought out ones..memory really fuzzy now tho..my grandmoms place (not the first time)..1st floor (now that almost *never* happens)..set in one of my dream worlds..probably part of world of my "picnic trip" dream..same green meadows around the house..slightly hilly..this time with some flowers sumver..but thats nt even close to the gud part..i kinda remm the first half of it being mayb a lil exciting or sumthg..like my usual ones..but wat i really remm really clearly starts frm wen i was in the house..upstairs..doing sum stuff on a table..papers..cards..something..n its getting dark outside..n guess who walks in???..et!!!..random or wat??..n he can apparantly teleport himself..yeah dunno y i knw that or y i even dreamt that..bt probably got sumthg to do with that almost blank first half of the dream..(for ppl who r unaware of my dreaming patterns..i get loads of these weird sci-fi dreams..or just downright crazy dreams where i have "powers"..n yeah m aware that freud wud have had a field day with me..hehe)..anyway so et lands up..with wat can only be termed as a sleeping bag..all nicely folded n in its cover of course..or it mite have been jst a small side-pillow (id rather keep thinkin of it as a sleeping bag..coz i really dnt think id b dreaming of et with pillows..not that m partial to him with sleeping bags either..but then..waaahhhh..just lemme get on with the dream!!)..but thats not really very important..wat was hilarious really was wat he did..apparantly he had been looking fr me all over (actually "everyone" was..since id disappeared after some "incident"..oh how i wish the first half was clearer)..so naturally i got all busy tidying up the table so we cud leave..but lo n behold!..wat does he do??..switch on the tv n put a movie in!!! (yeah now et n movies do go better than pillows rt??..hehe)..so apparantly he now wants to watch the movie..hehe..n it seems that i hav to comply!! (which m probably quite happy to anyway..cmon..papers on a table v/s movie..wich do u think wud win??)..so theres this divan there in front of the tv n m sitting on the floor with my back against it (yeah that used to be my fav pose wen we watched tv upstairs anyway)..so i have to look up slightly to see the screen..n where's et u might ask??..plonked on the table right in front of me..n he now apparantly wants to talk!!..well anyone who knws me evn a lil knows how i get wen sumone blocks my view..n i really dnt need much of a reason to b mad at him anyway rt??..suffice to say that i was emanating some decidedly murderous aura (picture it anime style!!)..n the next thing i knew i was plucked up n put on the divan so i cud watch properly again..wat happened later..well im again a bit fuzzy about it..i still distinctly remm feeling extremely confused with my mind on an eternal "eeeehhhhhhh????"..but i think i watched the movie..(actually y i dreamt up this whole sequence i hav no idea..coz it dusnt really seem to fit into the main dream..but wen i woke up the next day n recalled it i remm i laughed aloud fr 5 full minutes..tho now i have no idea y..dusnt seem all that funny in hindsite..just plain weird n very unnecessary actually)..next clear memory is of me fleeing the house for sum reason (again refer to the blank first half) n getting pulled into someones backyard thru a fence (u knw where one of the panels revolves sumhow n u can get in that way??)..n who do u think pulled me in n most likely saved me from watevr i was running frm??..n this was the best part of the whole dream..guess guess..nothing??..hehe..well il kill all the suspence then..yagami raito himself!!..yep..in all his kira-ness glory..hehe..n since its all AU, hes nt dead (yeah like duuhh!!..its *my* dream..like he'd die there), theres no annoying misa-misa n no freaky perpetually-on-a-sugar-high alphabet-ppl..well come to think of it..theres no ryuk either..or a death note..so probably no kira either..but never mind all that..its enough that raito's there n hes mine..actually m nt quite sure of that last bit coz mads had to find jst that moment to call me fr dinner, waking me up from raito-n-me-drowning-in-each-other's-eyes-goodness (ok mayb thats an overenthu exaggerated mushy fluff..but it cud happen..sumtime..hehe)..basically with that my dream flew away like a feather frm my hands (yes i jst watchd a ff8 amv..n squalls too hot fr his own gud!!)..i did manage to get back to bed within a few minutes but that moment was lost forever..no matter how hard i concentrated..how much i thought n thought n thought abt it..i just couldnt continue the dream..the rest of the night dreamt loads of mini dreams..even one about death note..n again upstairs in my grandmoms place..i was soo sure that i would be able to pick up where i left off..but nopes..turns out i just watched the whole l n raito getting soaked in rain part (the one jst b4 l's death)..but set in the terrace n the balcony of this place..even saw the whole drying off n foot massage part (now that jst screams yaoi!!)..disappointing to say the least..anyway by the time i realised that i was not gonna b able to go back to that dream n finally woke up it was aftee of the next day..n id slept for nearly 20 hours!!..needless to say woke up feeling all hung over (n guilty..fr missing classes..again..hehe)..but wat can i say..once m in one of my dreams reality takes a step backward..n i just plain luv my dreams far too much to come of out it soon..its like watching a movie while sleeping..n most of the times i watch dreams in "episodes" or get "sequels" to particularly gud dreams (fingers crossed fr this one!!)..which makes it seem even more like sum movie..n basically all of them make me feel really nice in the mornings (or wenever i get up actually..hehe) n kinda sad that m awake again..anyway id probably luv to keep on dreaming forever..like i think if i ever went into a coma n started dreaming..id probably never wanna cum back again..is that too demented or morbid??
anyhoo..iv really gotta end this now..probably the world's longest blog..ever..certainly bests all of my previous efforts..n its not even taken me that long..its just been one huge writing spree..hehe..anyway..so this is it..a dreamy (eternally!) highly anaemic (thanks to all my recent nosebleeds) completely crazy (now thats stale news by now i guess) blogger (now that actually sounds tame compared to wat came b4..but wat can i say..m too lazy n muddled to think up something clever..no wait! i did.."la la la"..hmmm..nopes..still too tame..*sigh*) signing off now to get back to her dreams..
jaa ne!!
ps: totally forgot about the la la la vid part..guess thats saved for next time then..this is just waay too long fr me to squeeze that in as well..n theres an "add video" option to blogs too (just noticed!)..so il probably attach the vid itself next time round..once i actually manage to save it that is!! :)
Monday, August 20, 2007
night out!!
so last night..was our night out..yeah well not exactly in the strict literal sense..but it was night n we ver out..so hell yeah it was our night out!! :D
anyway..last night was freshers' nite.."incandescence"..nice name..nice deco..terrible food..but thats all hearsay..coz we ver out!!..oh yeah!!..out!!..headed for the far beyond armed with a night out pass..to paint the town red sorta..not that jdp presents a very conducive environment for that..n after all we ver all "good lil girls" at heart..hehe..lemme start making sense of all this blabberness (etto..is that even a word??)..anyhoo..basically we didnt wanna go to freshers this time..what with next time being our last year n thus making it an obligation on our presence..hence we decided to ditch it this time n go out n hav some fun of our own..n since we knew that our darling shyamala being the hormonal b**** she is these days would definitely not give permi fr a late out w/o asking like a zillion questions n probably try n coerce us into goin fr freshers..hence the night out stating the official reason as a visit to ananyas place..but as it turned out she wasnt around n we got her hubby to do the dirty work fr us..tee hee!!
okee so me n ghosty went on a lil ahead to do a lil shopping n a lil couriering n a lil packing delicious (n surprisingly cheap!) chopsuey n a lil gorging on d best hot chocolate fudge ever (seriously..the bessssttt!!!)..met this bunch of gems at fun n' food..which made me realise that all our univ gems r probably all from gud ol' jdp!!!..there must b sum gem factory around here sumplace..mass production of gems!!!..i can actually see these countless gems getting "manufactured".."gemness" poured into them..moving around this huuge room on this conveyor belt thingy!!..wow talk abt "fertile imagination"!! (yes that ones fr ur viewing pleasure my dear friend-who-wishes-to-be-identified-as-"xyz")..anyway then we met the others in pizza hut n gorged again..n now they hav pepperoni personal pan too..yiee me!!..took like a tonnnne of pics..m sure the ppl on the next table were giving us real weird looks..oh yeah they've got this new thing on..world food fest or sumthg like that..n with it a new dance like they had in d first few days..hehe..hilarious..hopefully they'll retain it till the next time we decide to grace them with our presence..well we were done pretty early there..n with a permi to stay out as late as v want..dnt need any other excuse now do we..n after our "adventure" the other day we were looking fr a repeat performance..n the wilder the better..so on to geoffreys!!..id been waiting for this day to come fr god knows how long..n finally last night it was fulfilled..drrrrrrrrrr dum dum dum!!!..I GOT DRUNK!!..yiee!! woohoo!! yippie!! woopie doo!!..confetti-in-the-air-
n-all-over-my-nice-hair-which-iv-gotta-wash-now-that-uv-gotten-it-
all-ruined!!..yeah well not exactly drunk..but since my previous forays into the world of drinks has been limited to the strictly medical or experimental or culinary n all provided by my esteemed parents hence rendering it all harmless..therefore i find it proper to christen this time as my official first time..even if it was just one cocktail..with what seemed like negligible amount of vodka..but vodka nevertheless..so yeah finally i did one thing which only an adult can do..legally..wich kids have been doin illegally fr years now..bt lets not go into that now..so me n "xyz" (yes the same one as referred to earlier) had cocktails..while mads n ghosty shared a "muddy water" (sum sorta chocolate shake thingy)..mads n "xyz" had a peanut aiming contest which was depressingly one-sided..n ghosty got high on either that or the miniscule amount of smoke lingering around our table..bottom line the people who actually did drink remained stone cold sober while the one sans even a drop of alcohol in her bloodstream behaved drunk..just one of lifes many lil mysteries..really ironic..n sad fr me coz i was really hoping sumthg wud happen..n was sorely disappointed when it had lesser effect than diluted pepsi..oh well theres always a next time i suppose..so lounged around there for sumtime n finally decided we should be getting a move on around 11.30 or so..a great ride back..just luuuv goin bak late at nite wen its all dark n silent n cool..reached univ jst after midnite..thus ending our "night out"..freshers was still on..but it would be kinda cheap to jump in like that w/o paying jst to dance..n we were dead tired anyway n at least i was in no mood to go tango..so bak to "room sweet room" n "bed comfy bed" fr us..n one ep of haruhi later i was dead to the world..
in other news..these past few days..watched "suzumiya haruhi no yuutsu" aka "the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya"..had heard of this one from many a die-hard haruhi-ist chanting stuff like "haruhi kami-sama desu"..well apparantly its all true..n guess what??..the universe does revolve around her n will end if she gets bored or mad or sumthg..which makes for one hell of a wacky weird totally demented anime..in other words..i luuuuuv it..hehe..so what with haruhi-ism n waiting for the latest eps of my regular animes..n two eps of "hana kimi" (yeah got too bored of sars to upload on cr n ended up watching it on yt itself..cant blv its gonna b ending in like 4 eps or so..gonna miss it..dats like the one bad thing abt jdoramas..they end too soon..hopefully there'll b another season like the tw version)..pretty nice week iv had all in all..
sooo..been writing this one for ages too..time to wind it up..seems like every time i get down to pen sumthg down i invariably have to do a million n one things in b/w..this time it was a trip down to ananyas room to return sum stuff which naturally turned into this looooong adda session (n ur coffee is gr88..there! now thats on record too..so dont go around being all modest abt ur brewing skills..hehe)..n random chat sessions with ppl..n watching this n that in between..checking fr sum updates..so like i said..i manage to drift a lot..like all the time..n now m likely to go into a long drawn-out explanation of sum incident highlighting my drifting abilities to the fullest..thereby drifting away from the main point here..which was to end this thing fr now..
so..jaa mata ne!!
ciao..
anyway..last night was freshers' nite.."incandescence"..nice name..nice deco..terrible food..but thats all hearsay..coz we ver out!!..oh yeah!!..out!!..headed for the far beyond armed with a night out pass..to paint the town red sorta..not that jdp presents a very conducive environment for that..n after all we ver all "good lil girls" at heart..hehe..lemme start making sense of all this blabberness (etto..is that even a word??)..anyhoo..basically we didnt wanna go to freshers this time..what with next time being our last year n thus making it an obligation on our presence..hence we decided to ditch it this time n go out n hav some fun of our own..n since we knew that our darling shyamala being the hormonal b**** she is these days would definitely not give permi fr a late out w/o asking like a zillion questions n probably try n coerce us into goin fr freshers..hence the night out stating the official reason as a visit to ananyas place..but as it turned out she wasnt around n we got her hubby to do the dirty work fr us..tee hee!!
okee so me n ghosty went on a lil ahead to do a lil shopping n a lil couriering n a lil packing delicious (n surprisingly cheap!) chopsuey n a lil gorging on d best hot chocolate fudge ever (seriously..the bessssttt!!!)..met this bunch of gems at fun n' food..which made me realise that all our univ gems r probably all from gud ol' jdp!!!..there must b sum gem factory around here sumplace..mass production of gems!!!..i can actually see these countless gems getting "manufactured".."gemness" poured into them..moving around this huuge room on this conveyor belt thingy!!..wow talk abt "fertile imagination"!! (yes that ones fr ur viewing pleasure my dear friend-who-wishes-to-be-identified-as-"xyz")..anyway then we met the others in pizza hut n gorged again..n now they hav pepperoni personal pan too..yiee me!!..took like a tonnnne of pics..m sure the ppl on the next table were giving us real weird looks..oh yeah they've got this new thing on..world food fest or sumthg like that..n with it a new dance like they had in d first few days..hehe..hilarious..hopefully they'll retain it till the next time we decide to grace them with our presence..well we were done pretty early there..n with a permi to stay out as late as v want..dnt need any other excuse now do we..n after our "adventure" the other day we were looking fr a repeat performance..n the wilder the better..so on to geoffreys!!..id been waiting for this day to come fr god knows how long..n finally last night it was fulfilled..drrrrrrrrrr dum dum dum!!!..I GOT DRUNK!!..yiee!! woohoo!! yippie!! woopie doo!!..confetti-in-the-air-
n-all-over-my-nice-hair-which-iv-gotta-wash-now-that-uv-gotten-it-
all-ruined!!..yeah well not exactly drunk..but since my previous forays into the world of drinks has been limited to the strictly medical or experimental or culinary n all provided by my esteemed parents hence rendering it all harmless..therefore i find it proper to christen this time as my official first time..even if it was just one cocktail..with what seemed like negligible amount of vodka..but vodka nevertheless..so yeah finally i did one thing which only an adult can do..legally..wich kids have been doin illegally fr years now..bt lets not go into that now..so me n "xyz" (yes the same one as referred to earlier) had cocktails..while mads n ghosty shared a "muddy water" (sum sorta chocolate shake thingy)..mads n "xyz" had a peanut aiming contest which was depressingly one-sided..n ghosty got high on either that or the miniscule amount of smoke lingering around our table..bottom line the people who actually did drink remained stone cold sober while the one sans even a drop of alcohol in her bloodstream behaved drunk..just one of lifes many lil mysteries..really ironic..n sad fr me coz i was really hoping sumthg wud happen..n was sorely disappointed when it had lesser effect than diluted pepsi..oh well theres always a next time i suppose..so lounged around there for sumtime n finally decided we should be getting a move on around 11.30 or so..a great ride back..just luuuv goin bak late at nite wen its all dark n silent n cool..reached univ jst after midnite..thus ending our "night out"..freshers was still on..but it would be kinda cheap to jump in like that w/o paying jst to dance..n we were dead tired anyway n at least i was in no mood to go tango..so bak to "room sweet room" n "bed comfy bed" fr us..n one ep of haruhi later i was dead to the world..
in other news..these past few days..watched "suzumiya haruhi no yuutsu" aka "the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya"..had heard of this one from many a die-hard haruhi-ist chanting stuff like "haruhi kami-sama desu"..well apparantly its all true..n guess what??..the universe does revolve around her n will end if she gets bored or mad or sumthg..which makes for one hell of a wacky weird totally demented anime..in other words..i luuuuuv it..hehe..so what with haruhi-ism n waiting for the latest eps of my regular animes..n two eps of "hana kimi" (yeah got too bored of sars to upload on cr n ended up watching it on yt itself..cant blv its gonna b ending in like 4 eps or so..gonna miss it..dats like the one bad thing abt jdoramas..they end too soon..hopefully there'll b another season like the tw version)..pretty nice week iv had all in all..
sooo..been writing this one for ages too..time to wind it up..seems like every time i get down to pen sumthg down i invariably have to do a million n one things in b/w..this time it was a trip down to ananyas room to return sum stuff which naturally turned into this looooong adda session (n ur coffee is gr88..there! now thats on record too..so dont go around being all modest abt ur brewing skills..hehe)..n random chat sessions with ppl..n watching this n that in between..checking fr sum updates..so like i said..i manage to drift a lot..like all the time..n now m likely to go into a long drawn-out explanation of sum incident highlighting my drifting abilities to the fullest..thereby drifting away from the main point here..which was to end this thing fr now..
so..jaa mata ne!!
ciao..
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